February 16th, 2016
Phab Art Online
Anime Relations: NHK ni Youkoso!
[DAY 93]
Well, well I actually broke the 90 days challenge and still haven't given a single thought of starting doing it again.
Did it benefit me? In some way, yes, it did. While there weren't any supernatural powers involved, it actually helped me in gaining more confidence and talk to new people as I had then just started university.
I would be lying to myself if I didn't mention that there were times where the urge was rising again and again and where my willpower was slowly fading away. Those were the moments where I recall all the good memories I was able to make without doing so. Maybe I'm just a bit superstitious, but I can't shake off the feeling that if I started again, something bad would folliow as a consequence.
Anyway, this whole experience was and still is sort of teaching me about self-control, about doing things that aren't very pleasant, but still need to be done.
I haven't set a goal where I would stop this 'challenge'. Initially I was going for the 90 days, but I kind of want to know how far I can take it, before crumbling under my urges, or maybe will I even succeed and be able the clear my mind and escape the world of fantasies.
Well, well I actually broke the 90 days challenge and still haven't given a single thought of starting doing it again.
Did it benefit me? In some way, yes, it did. While there weren't any supernatural powers involved, it actually helped me in gaining more confidence and talk to new people as I had then just started university.
I would be lying to myself if I didn't mention that there were times where the urge was rising again and again and where my willpower was slowly fading away. Those were the moments where I recall all the good memories I was able to make without doing so. Maybe I'm just a bit superstitious, but I can't shake off the feeling that if I started again, something bad would folliow as a consequence.
Anyway, this whole experience was and still is sort of teaching me about self-control, about doing things that aren't very pleasant, but still need to be done.
I haven't set a goal where I would stop this 'challenge'. Initially I was going for the 90 days, but I kind of want to know how far I can take it, before crumbling under my urges, or maybe will I even succeed and be able the clear my mind and escape the world of fantasies.
Posted by Luciferio | Feb 16, 2016 2:08 PM | 0 comments
December 20th, 2015
Phab Tail
Anime Relations: NHK ni Youkoso!
[DAY 35]
I broke the 30 days mark!! Yea! What a milestone.
Althougth the last few days have been a real torture to me. Getting excited by almost everything.
I was 1 step away from throwing everything overboard, but I'm glad I didn't and I think it made me a little more resistant.
For now the real enemy is my procrastination problem. I seriously need to get some stuff done!
I broke the 30 days mark!! Yea! What a milestone.
Althougth the last few days have been a real torture to me. Getting excited by almost everything.
I was 1 step away from throwing everything overboard, but I'm glad I didn't and I think it made me a little more resistant.
For now the real enemy is my procrastination problem. I seriously need to get some stuff done!
Posted by Luciferio | Dec 20, 2015 9:17 AM | 0 comments
December 6th, 2015
Phab Note
Anime Relations: NHK ni Youkoso!
[DAY 21]
During the last days I did feel a change of mentality, but also physically. For instance, my mind is much clearer and I am able to look into the person's eyes standing in front of me without having to look away every 2 second, my interactions with other people have become much more frequent and sometimes it's actually them calling me instead of the opposite as it was in the past.
In addition, I finally discovered the secret how morning people can actually get up so early and not feel tired.
After 1 week of my streak, I felt really tired everyday, but now I can even get less sleep and still be fully operational during the day without having to resort to energy drinks and that sort of stuff.
The only problem that persists is my tendency for procrastination. I lose a lot of time by doing nothing really productive, eventhough my mind screams, JUST DO IT inside my head.
If this goes on, I might actually break the Day 30 mark.
During the last days I did feel a change of mentality, but also physically. For instance, my mind is much clearer and I am able to look into the person's eyes standing in front of me without having to look away every 2 second, my interactions with other people have become much more frequent and sometimes it's actually them calling me instead of the opposite as it was in the past.
In addition, I finally discovered the secret how morning people can actually get up so early and not feel tired.
After 1 week of my streak, I felt really tired everyday, but now I can even get less sleep and still be fully operational during the day without having to resort to energy drinks and that sort of stuff.
The only problem that persists is my tendency for procrastination. I lose a lot of time by doing nothing really productive, eventhough my mind screams, JUST DO IT inside my head.
If this goes on, I might actually break the Day 30 mark.
Posted by Luciferio | Dec 6, 2015 10:20 AM | 0 comments
November 25th, 2015
Phab Geass
Anime Relations: NHK ni Youkoso!
[DAY 10]
10 days! A milestone (sorta)
Lately I've been feeling much more tired than usually, such almost falling asleep during classes.
I tried to boost myself with energy drinks and, althought they help to some extent, the effect doesn't last for too long. However, like my last entry said, I've become much more sociable, well at least a little more than I used to be, and in general I try to enjoy life as it is, but at the moment a lot of stress is building up due to university, but I think I'll manage that somehow, if my procrastination doesn't get more out of hand.
Seriously, I didn't feel like to do anything today since I spent about 9 hours sitting in classes and taking notes.
I really need to get some sleep.
10 days! A milestone (sorta)
Lately I've been feeling much more tired than usually, such almost falling asleep during classes.
I tried to boost myself with energy drinks and, althought they help to some extent, the effect doesn't last for too long. However, like my last entry said, I've become much more sociable, well at least a little more than I used to be, and in general I try to enjoy life as it is, but at the moment a lot of stress is building up due to university, but I think I'll manage that somehow, if my procrastination doesn't get more out of hand.
Seriously, I didn't feel like to do anything today since I spent about 9 hours sitting in classes and taking notes.
I really need to get some sleep.
Posted by Luciferio | Nov 25, 2015 2:33 PM | 0 comments
November 23rd, 2015
No Phab No Life
Anime Relations: NHK ni Youkoso!
Alright guess this is a good opportunity to test this feature out, althought I'm not sure if I'm even allowed to post something like this, which isn't really related to anime nor manga, well I'll put in NHK as somewhat related anime, since it does take an approach on changing one's life.
[DAY 8]
I can't believe that I resisted my urge already for 8 days. It feels, weird, on the one side, I'm much more talkative since I stopped, and in general much more social. However on the other side, I feel realy tired, maybe a withdrawal effect due to the abrupt decision, or maybe I^m just using more energy to interact with people?
Althought, I do still a little bit guilty since I did visit some websites which were largely NSFW(M). However I did not do the act, which I'm really proud of.
I heard that the benefits will pay off in the future and I strongly believe that at least some of them are true, like having more free-time and gaining interest in other people again, also by not wasting time on searching up research matieral. (If you know what I mean)
For now I'll try to focus on university to get stuff done!
[DAY 8]
I can't believe that I resisted my urge already for 8 days. It feels, weird, on the one side, I'm much more talkative since I stopped, and in general much more social. However on the other side, I feel realy tired, maybe a withdrawal effect due to the abrupt decision, or maybe I^m just using more energy to interact with people?
Althought, I do still a little bit guilty since I did visit some websites which were largely NSFW(M). However I did not do the act, which I'm really proud of.
I heard that the benefits will pay off in the future and I strongly believe that at least some of them are true, like having more free-time and gaining interest in other people again, also by not wasting time on searching up research matieral. (If you know what I mean)
For now I'll try to focus on university to get stuff done!
Posted by Luciferio | Nov 23, 2015 2:19 PM | 0 comments