Lollipopocoaster said: I don't really know... I feel different from hour to hour, and I am kind of sad and happy at the same time. I'm hopeful but worried for the future. I will move to another town for studies and I am looking forward to it but I am very bad at making friends, I always end up left alone in the most situations. And I'm worried what my new classmates will think of me.. I don't like alcohol and parties, I'm gay, and I'm a lot of other things which is not considered "normal". But I don't want to change... but still I want friends. I'm so tired of being lonely. I also want a boyfriend but that's not my prior wish.
That's what I think about nowadays... but I have fun stuff coming up to... convention in august and salary on friday, and I'm young an healthy, ans so on ^_^ I'm strong and brave, I can do this! I HAVE SIMILAR EMOTIONS, is like you aren't happy but you aren't sad? And the only other emotions you have are the same except you may be just a little bit more happy than sad and vice versa? I've lost most of those, but I love them. But yet I don't EMOTIONALLY love them, you see? I DESCRIBE IT AS THE DRY EGO. |