October 5th, 2021
Cards
Anime Relations: Super GALS! Kotobuki Ran
Good day! I am writing this blog to compile the cards I have lost. I unintentionally pressed a shortcut button that led to my laptop to delete all my files (I haven't backed them up on my external hard drive and other storage.) Majority is anime and manga related.
I needed this page to help me remind amidst the feeling of disappointment, being depressed and feeling alone and probably to help me organize the cards and entries I have received from everyone.
Aja!
I needed this page to help me remind amidst the feeling of disappointment, being depressed and feeling alone and probably to help me organize the cards and entries I have received from everyone.
Aja!
Posted by erin92 | Oct 5, 2021 8:38 PM | 14 comments
November 2nd, 2016
Blame it all to me
Anime Relations: Hachimitsu to Clover, Bokura ga Ita
I grew up in a community where I've seen much mistakes pointing out to innocents and as a child and immature I was, I couldn't do anything for them but just watch and sit back, seeing them one by one, disappointed and heart broken till they left the place and no news heard from them.
Today, as a mature adult that I can be, I have tried as possible as myself to tolerate every actions that may lead the blame to any involved persons in dire circumstances. Especially if I see how stress can be spread and started from every aspects in life whether it is at home, school, work or even on sacred places. Stress coming not only on physical form but also in mental, spiritual, emotional or whatever seems really take a tool on us and it is a good thing if you really know how to control the situation with your logic and proper assessment. Not a total judgment on a shallow point of view of such situation.
Thing is: I always get blame on just because she or he was told by others that I do and did those (mostly rumors running around that I can ignore since they are not really true) or whatever is unpleasant and bad news coming my way. For example, not helping my colleagues in their responsibilities or doing a certain procedure/s that take some time. You probably don't know what post mortem is but I do that every now and then to my dead patients and the rumor said I haven't done of it. What the heck? Do they have eyes? Are they really sure? -.- I spent hours doing that even been there for the relatives to grieve on and some of my colleagues did nothing but just do their paperworks. A shame to them. Pointing something to blame on me and spreading it like wildfire to others. I have accepted it all, no contradiction with that. It is much hassle to my part, explaining when most people just wanted to hear the negative end result. I know I just don't talk to much to anyone as I am not that people person they wish me to be. I'd rather set an example among them the best that I can be even if they see me unfit to the position I am in.
I don't get on why most of the people blame others for that mistake or in any other way look for someone to blame one. Isn't it suffice to think of the reason/s why such event came up like that instead of blaming? Nothing really good comes out of it instead arising jealousy, more conflicts, dull improvement, wasting time and no good benefits would pile up making difficult for everyone highlighting the last people to touch with the resolve.
I choose to blame everything to myself since you can't really do anything other than accepting it as part of who I am and it is nice to accept it as a challenge to improve more of myself.
Today, as a mature adult that I can be, I have tried as possible as myself to tolerate every actions that may lead the blame to any involved persons in dire circumstances. Especially if I see how stress can be spread and started from every aspects in life whether it is at home, school, work or even on sacred places. Stress coming not only on physical form but also in mental, spiritual, emotional or whatever seems really take a tool on us and it is a good thing if you really know how to control the situation with your logic and proper assessment. Not a total judgment on a shallow point of view of such situation.
Thing is: I always get blame on just because she or he was told by others that I do and did those (mostly rumors running around that I can ignore since they are not really true) or whatever is unpleasant and bad news coming my way. For example, not helping my colleagues in their responsibilities or doing a certain procedure/s that take some time. You probably don't know what post mortem is but I do that every now and then to my dead patients and the rumor said I haven't done of it. What the heck? Do they have eyes? Are they really sure? -.- I spent hours doing that even been there for the relatives to grieve on and some of my colleagues did nothing but just do their paperworks. A shame to them. Pointing something to blame on me and spreading it like wildfire to others. I have accepted it all, no contradiction with that. It is much hassle to my part, explaining when most people just wanted to hear the negative end result. I know I just don't talk to much to anyone as I am not that people person they wish me to be. I'd rather set an example among them the best that I can be even if they see me unfit to the position I am in.
I don't get on why most of the people blame others for that mistake or in any other way look for someone to blame one. Isn't it suffice to think of the reason/s why such event came up like that instead of blaming? Nothing really good comes out of it instead arising jealousy, more conflicts, dull improvement, wasting time and no good benefits would pile up making difficult for everyone highlighting the last people to touch with the resolve.
I choose to blame everything to myself since you can't really do anything other than accepting it as part of who I am and it is nice to accept it as a challenge to improve more of myself.
Posted by erin92 | Nov 2, 2016 8:44 AM | 0 comments
September 2nd, 2016
Being weird?
Anime Relations: Natsume Yuujinchou
Weird? I am that is (I guess yet I am not totally sure of it)!
It was way back in my high school days that I have been called weird by my so-called friends. I really didn't understand it first. Perhaps someone just explained it to me that it was because how my attitude changes when interacting people. Same goes for them if they didn't realize it -.- I am still on the puzzle on it as it didn't relinquish my curiosity.
I know that each one of is unique and being weird is not a pretty bad compliment. I take it as a good thing for me. This highlights me on how I am different to other people and may marked me as one different being. I couldn't care less on what others are trying and going to say as long as I didn't do anything bad at them or even badmouth or vice versa. I mean in other way, it is a waste of time to chitchat nonsense when I can't benefit from it. I prefer doing things my way that usually give me credits, not in a show off manner but just within me.
Take it or leave it. It is just the way I am and I am happy for it. Life sucks but don't succumb it. This is unrelated XD
It was way back in my high school days that I have been called weird by my so-called friends. I really didn't understand it first. Perhaps someone just explained it to me that it was because how my attitude changes when interacting people. Same goes for them if they didn't realize it -.- I am still on the puzzle on it as it didn't relinquish my curiosity.
I know that each one of is unique and being weird is not a pretty bad compliment. I take it as a good thing for me. This highlights me on how I am different to other people and may marked me as one different being. I couldn't care less on what others are trying and going to say as long as I didn't do anything bad at them or even badmouth or vice versa. I mean in other way, it is a waste of time to chitchat nonsense when I can't benefit from it. I prefer doing things my way that usually give me credits, not in a show off manner but just within me.
Take it or leave it. It is just the way I am and I am happy for it. Life sucks but don't succumb it. This is unrelated XD
Posted by erin92 | Sep 2, 2016 3:22 PM | 1 comments