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October 14th, 2010
Stress
10/14/2010

What is this feeling?
Why do I want to curl up and sleep?
Sleep forever
Never wake up
My body achs
My soul cries for releif

Even my heart is being affected
I'm hurting those that I love
I'm having doubts about us
I love you
And I know you love me
And I don't want to hurt you

I feel like I"m drowning
And I don't even have time to think
I have so much to do
And little time to do it
I'm not sure if I can handle much more

I know that I need to calm down
To relax
Get my work done
And stop worring about teh little things
But I don't think I can right now
I'm stretched to my limit

I'm so stressed that my body is starting to shut down
I'm always tired
I have twin dragons for knots
And I've been really short tempered
This is not who I am
I am not like this

This is the stranger that stress makes me
And you are the only one who knows how to help
And I can't be with you right now
I miss you
More then I realize sometimes

I just want to see you
To hold you
To kiss you
To relieve your stress
And for you to releive mine
I love you
Posted by arii_chan | Oct 14, 2010 7:18 PM | 0 comments
May 2nd, 2010
Just Friends
10/17/2007

Why can't I fight this feeling?
I've fought it for months
Why can't I fight it now?
Now things are getting better
Have I been fighting for too long
Or have I just been in denial
What ever the reason
I can't fight it any longer
I can't think straight and I feel horrible
I'm really sorry I have to do this
Sorry I have to hurt you
But I just can't fight this
This feeling that I can't even describe
All I know is it hurts
And I'm tired of hurting
I've hurt for too long now
Never because of you
But you aren't helping
And I only see a friend in you
I just don't think I can be with you
Not anymore at least
I don't blame you
Especially if you don't understand
Your life has been so easy
That is compared to mine
I just don't want to hurt anymore
And all I see if friendship between us
So I hope you understand
Because no matter how I look at it
We just can't be together anymore
So...friends?
I don't want to cut all ties with you
So please, please can we just me friends?
Posted by arii_chan | May 2, 2010 6:31 PM | 0 comments
Changed
6/27/2007

You've changed
So much I don't even know you anymore
You went from being one of my best friends
To a complete stranger
And all this happened in just ONE year
Yeah some of your problems were solved
And that's always a good time to change
But did you have to change completely
All of your once close friends are now distant
We don't even know who you are anymore
What made you change?
Was it your boyfriend?
Your dad?
Your mom?
Who?
Or did something happen that your not telling us?
We didn't change
You did
Not us
And to tell you the truth
I don't really like the new you
I miss my best friend
The person I could tell anything to
Now I'm afraid of telling you anything
Anything at all
You've made mew friends
And now they're more important then us
Your old ones
The ones who were with you no matter what
Even before you had some of your problems fixed
And who would have always been by your side
Though thick and thin
Like we did before
But now...
You've changed
You've changed a lot
Posted by arii_chan | May 2, 2010 6:29 PM | 0 comments
Hide
5/17/2007

Why are you hiding?
What don't you want me to know?
It's scary to know your hiding
I know I have no room to talk
I hide everything too
But you sound like your saying goodbye
I bet I know how you feel
Alone, scared, helpless, and worried
Well now I'm worried
Worried that you'll do something
Something you will regret
We all love you
And all care about you
And I have stop hiding
Now it's time for you to stop hiding
Please don't hide anymore
Stop with me
Posted by arii_chan | May 2, 2010 6:26 PM | 0 comments
Calm Down
11/16/2005

Calm down
Leave me alone
I'll tell you
And show you
When I'm ready to
So just CALM DOWN!!
Posted by arii_chan | May 2, 2010 6:24 PM | 0 comments
Silence
11/15/2005

This is a weird silence
We used to talk and laugh
Now do nothing but sit in silence
Why is there silence?
Why is there no laughter?
Or talking anymore?
The silence is killing me
The silence between us is weirder then I could ever imagine
So why is there silence?
Is it because of what happened with your brother?
Or is it something else?
Posted by arii_chan | May 2, 2010 6:21 PM | 0 comments
It’s time to ditch the text file.
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