TearStainedFaces's Blog

Have you ever woke up one day and looked at your life and noticed you werent living one?One day after another it is work work work for everything you do.You cant escape the hell of it all and all of the pressure is put on you.You slowly start to break down and dont even noticed until you have hit rock bottom and cant see the exit.Then you notice how once it all hits you and you finally open your eyes to see what is happening you want to throw everything away.You cant escape the stress and pressure of everything and you know you cant handle it all.You cry yourself to sleep knowing no one understands how you feel at that moment and some refuse to notice.You just dont want to go on but yet you want to stay alive.
You fight with what you beleive in and what feels right at the time.Then finally some of it goes away then it all crashes back down on you even harder!Like standing in the middle of a highway and getting hit by a speeding semi with a drunk
driver.Your emotionally beaten down by everything your expected to be and everything your trying to be but know you cant be.Yes even i a teenager of 13 1/2 feels this.Im about to fail my math class.Thus leading to failing the school year thus leading to another yr in 8th grade.then coming home and being expected to do everything no one else wants to do and expected to do all of my extra curriculars and homework and make good grades.I already missed get togethers on the weekends of my friends because of the extra cirricular i am in.And im more than likely gonna miss my own birthday party.I cant handle it really i cant.Im supposed to use my weekends for fun and be able to fail a class once and not be held back for it!But NO i cant cause im expected to be fukin perfect!Thank you and GOODNIGHT!