March 25th, 2019
Media, communication and loneliness
Anime Relations: NHK ni Youkoso!
I have always used computers and internet as a means of escapism and entertainment. Occasionally switch it up a lil and attempt to create something. This is that.
First off, online communication for me is extremely frustrating. But time and time again find myself desperately trying to get something out of it. Some kind of connection. I've had no such luck. Feels like smashing my head against a wall. So i give up pretty quick. The internet era where people came to connect to those "like minded" is gone. I was not there. Instead I am here. The entertainment era. The Stimulation era. I picture my skull with mirrors for eyes and aux ports for ears. Constantly plugged in. Music; YouTube; podcasts; anime; games; Porn. Constantly consuming, never creating. My mental attention span has become defectively short, but this is getting a little off track. Point is finding someone to talk to online is hard.
I browse these forums and see nothing of interest. I don't know anyone who likes anime like I do. Don't get me wrong i'm sure they exist. But the internet isn't segregated (like it used to be so i'm told) Everyone is in the same place now therefor the pond is infinity bigger, and you only find niche groups the moment they stop being niche. If you've got popular interests, good for you. If not, i guess you're alone. Like me.
I feel as if ive developed some kind of severe autism. Spoken communication is uncomfortable and limited. I can only express the most basic of ideas. This generally involves bouncing off other peoples thoughts and feelings. I am a quiet man, not because I have little to say, but because I feel I lack the skills to say it. I lack the words and the audience to care. The ideas within my head don't form into spoken language, or at least not without some planning. So here I am writing instead. This I also have no audience for.
This is a blog to no one.
This context-less; "out of touch"; uninformed piece of work is my attempt at communicating a feeling.
Thankyou
First off, online communication for me is extremely frustrating. But time and time again find myself desperately trying to get something out of it. Some kind of connection. I've had no such luck. Feels like smashing my head against a wall. So i give up pretty quick. The internet era where people came to connect to those "like minded" is gone. I was not there. Instead I am here. The entertainment era. The Stimulation era. I picture my skull with mirrors for eyes and aux ports for ears. Constantly plugged in. Music; YouTube; podcasts; anime; games; Porn. Constantly consuming, never creating. My mental attention span has become defectively short, but this is getting a little off track. Point is finding someone to talk to online is hard.
I browse these forums and see nothing of interest. I don't know anyone who likes anime like I do. Don't get me wrong i'm sure they exist. But the internet isn't segregated (like it used to be so i'm told) Everyone is in the same place now therefor the pond is infinity bigger, and you only find niche groups the moment they stop being niche. If you've got popular interests, good for you. If not, i guess you're alone. Like me.
I feel as if ive developed some kind of severe autism. Spoken communication is uncomfortable and limited. I can only express the most basic of ideas. This generally involves bouncing off other peoples thoughts and feelings. I am a quiet man, not because I have little to say, but because I feel I lack the skills to say it. I lack the words and the audience to care. The ideas within my head don't form into spoken language, or at least not without some planning. So here I am writing instead. This I also have no audience for.
This is a blog to no one.
This context-less; "out of touch"; uninformed piece of work is my attempt at communicating a feeling.
Thankyou
Posted by SeaOfRed | Mar 25, 2019 10:35 PM | 0 comments