November 18th, 2010
rant page...
Just as a warning, this is my rant page, i will go on and on about things that annoy me. Spaces mean different entries
The main reason i made this is to rant about how no one wants to adopt me. I'm guessing everyone else feels the same, i mean who wants to run up to someone and say, " you get to be my pretend brother/sister/person that is related/ etc." I don't want to do this to others, which is kind of weird because i want others to. I know some people, but i don't want to have to actually know the person in real life to be family on MAL. I feel like one of those people that is always alone, it would be cool to have someone i could talk to about things like anime. I need more friends, closer ones. Wow, i just realized how weird I'm sounding...I think i'm just writing down my every thought. I heard of this guy that always seemed to like to be alone. Today, i watched an episode of the twilight zone where this guy just wanted time to read books. what happened was he went into the bank vault to read in silence, and while down there, an incredibly big incendiary bomb went off decimating all of life where he was. He had all the time in the world, and went to read. He got to set up his book for the next couple years from the public library...then his glasses break, all the time in he world, only to have nothing to spend it on. I don't know how that pertains to my problem though. Just to say something funny, I ACTUALLY like never going to give you up by rick astley. I like to think of myself of one of the few guys in the world with chivalry. I get mad at all those people who are obviously only dating a girl for the physical pleasure, when i can try as hard as i can to get a girl just to have someone to love unconditionally, yet girls aren't interested in people like me. Why don't girls like sensitive people?
I still wonder why you have all these people running around, trying to be like others. Why do i hear people say is to be unique, and then they say to dress like this person? contradiction much? I think myself to be either a walking contradiction or the most rounded person i know. I like to read, run, dance ( popping and break), mess around, watch anime, draw, sleep ( who doesn't?!), play games, make games, watch movies, practice dancing, and i could go on, but, like always, i digress. or can i digress when i do this. I wanted to have a place to complain or rather, a place to run all the things i think. I believe that when people decide to think and make decisions based on good morals for themselves is the time that they are truly adult. that is why you have dozens of idiots who are 21+ and are still immature. The world is in a downward spiral, mainly concerning our world morals. I hate the way people act in society, how they follow stupid trends, follow those they believe superior, follow those around them, who are following that person, thus, there will never be improvement on our society. I just wish that people could see what they were really doing to themselves and others. I bet most of them would stop when they see that.
Despite being so sad and lonely all the time, i still hate when people look down on my by thinking they are good enough to handle my problems too. Being random, or changing the subject is a great to hide that, allowing yourself to be real to yourself only when people don't know who you are. I hate the way the world focuses on relationships. I hate the people that try to help others, which only destroys their sense of pride. People are selfish and will only do things to help themselves. The worst version of this is in a word called "schadenfreude". It literally means happiness at the pain of others. This is where bullies come from. Oh, i just remembered another bad memory. Bullies are the worst things to exist, they change who you are to a weaker and more pitiful kind of person. I feel sorry for girls everywhere, who get bullied throughout their life thanks to the way the world portrays the " best kind of woman". Though i pride myself in being a person that constantly tries to improve themselves, i can't help but be stubborn at judging and analyzing everything around me. I will constantly trying to understand who i am arguing with and use every word they say against me to defeat them, not by saying I'm right, but by saying that they are wrong.
The main reason i made this is to rant about how no one wants to adopt me. I'm guessing everyone else feels the same, i mean who wants to run up to someone and say, " you get to be my pretend brother/sister/person that is related/ etc." I don't want to do this to others, which is kind of weird because i want others to. I know some people, but i don't want to have to actually know the person in real life to be family on MAL. I feel like one of those people that is always alone, it would be cool to have someone i could talk to about things like anime. I need more friends, closer ones. Wow, i just realized how weird I'm sounding...I think i'm just writing down my every thought. I heard of this guy that always seemed to like to be alone. Today, i watched an episode of the twilight zone where this guy just wanted time to read books. what happened was he went into the bank vault to read in silence, and while down there, an incredibly big incendiary bomb went off decimating all of life where he was. He had all the time in the world, and went to read. He got to set up his book for the next couple years from the public library...then his glasses break, all the time in he world, only to have nothing to spend it on. I don't know how that pertains to my problem though. Just to say something funny, I ACTUALLY like never going to give you up by rick astley. I like to think of myself of one of the few guys in the world with chivalry. I get mad at all those people who are obviously only dating a girl for the physical pleasure, when i can try as hard as i can to get a girl just to have someone to love unconditionally, yet girls aren't interested in people like me. Why don't girls like sensitive people?
I still wonder why you have all these people running around, trying to be like others. Why do i hear people say is to be unique, and then they say to dress like this person? contradiction much? I think myself to be either a walking contradiction or the most rounded person i know. I like to read, run, dance ( popping and break), mess around, watch anime, draw, sleep ( who doesn't?!), play games, make games, watch movies, practice dancing, and i could go on, but, like always, i digress. or can i digress when i do this. I wanted to have a place to complain or rather, a place to run all the things i think. I believe that when people decide to think and make decisions based on good morals for themselves is the time that they are truly adult. that is why you have dozens of idiots who are 21+ and are still immature. The world is in a downward spiral, mainly concerning our world morals. I hate the way people act in society, how they follow stupid trends, follow those they believe superior, follow those around them, who are following that person, thus, there will never be improvement on our society. I just wish that people could see what they were really doing to themselves and others. I bet most of them would stop when they see that.
Despite being so sad and lonely all the time, i still hate when people look down on my by thinking they are good enough to handle my problems too. Being random, or changing the subject is a great to hide that, allowing yourself to be real to yourself only when people don't know who you are. I hate the way the world focuses on relationships. I hate the people that try to help others, which only destroys their sense of pride. People are selfish and will only do things to help themselves. The worst version of this is in a word called "schadenfreude". It literally means happiness at the pain of others. This is where bullies come from. Oh, i just remembered another bad memory. Bullies are the worst things to exist, they change who you are to a weaker and more pitiful kind of person. I feel sorry for girls everywhere, who get bullied throughout their life thanks to the way the world portrays the " best kind of woman". Though i pride myself in being a person that constantly tries to improve themselves, i can't help but be stubborn at judging and analyzing everything around me. I will constantly trying to understand who i am arguing with and use every word they say against me to defeat them, not by saying I'm right, but by saying that they are wrong.
Posted by Safaridor | Nov 18, 2010 12:52 PM | 1 comments