Openness- 87.5%
Conscientiousness - 54%
Extraversion - 25%
Agreeableness - 77%
Neuroticism - 73% Long Version
I mirror the atmosphere (not people, exactly) of those around me (not actually a negative trait to anyone but myself, but not so bad either), so if you're upset/annoyed/happy, then I will probably be but to a more lenient and personalised extent, too.
I don't like close-minded people at all, so please, don't even bother. I'm extremely aware of my surroundings, so don't fumble up over anything that you don't understand, and definitely don't disapprove of anything that gets questioned if they had valid reasoning. I state and point out your errors and hope that you'd improve on them, because we all should, right? That is all.
If my mental illness is something that you ignore, and judge me assuming things, then I'd just like to say that I am incredibly empathetic and highly sensitive, and I mean no harm. The OCEAN (Big 5) results somewhat prove that, but I'll redo the test once I'm getting therapy.
Allergy around dust, pollen, and cat hair (but I still love my pretty kitties).
Favourite Games
Danganronpa 2, Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories, Kingdom Hearts 2, End Roll, Ib, Your Turn to Die, Identity V, AI: The Somnium Files, NieR:Automata, Detroit: Become Human
Favourite Music Artists
J-Core: (t+pazolite, Camellia, RoughSketch, Laur, Massive New Krew), 6th, Siromaru, Dischord, DJ Technorch, Aoi Sumito, Team Grimoire, DJ Myosuke
Other: Miyashita Yuu, MIYAVI, Amazarashi, Eve, Pegboard Nerds, Amatsuki, Soraru/Mafumafu, Ghost, Panic! At The Disco, Kradness, The Bloody Beetroots, Angerfist, Gao Er Xuan, The Living Proof, Alpha Legion, Rise Against, Kazyo
In a sense, I'm like characters like Nagito, Sou, maybe Kokichi, etc. I haven't come across more appropriate characters yet. Just not with their psychotic selves and Nagito's first chapter self lmao, I too want to be stepped on by Hajime but their motives and how they interacted with the rest of the cast. Characters like them improvise and don't naively give away details that'll be easy to overcome. They're witty, and allow and expect others to figure situations out themselves without relying on backup and quarrels that take those people nowhere out of their own blinded fixation. They teach people these things instead of literal teaching or mouth feeding them; they're the strivers who bear with the mental load and deal with the situation themselves enigmatically. Nothing is straightforward for them, and nothing is proven and shown to be obvious. Intuition plays a huge part in that character's mind, and they'll go through with something that they believe is true: because instinct is a skill of theirs. Their awareness of the situation and the other individuals creates confliction out of other's own blindness to the truth. Their personalities are too complex to the point others detest and grudge them without looking at the much larger picture. (Humans in themselves are very simple-minded, and if they're fixated on one thing, there's no way you can talk them out of it. People only want what suits them and detest anything that doesn't benefit them in a way. People's moral compasses are out of order and all they can simply do is lash out back at the one who they do not agree with or come to understand; their right and wrong are mixed up.)
Now... you know why they and I are true to themselves yet lose trust with others and stay away from the crowd when in actuality they are speaking of the truth? It's all because of open-mindedness. We're open to understanding other sides and situations and take them in, never being biased, and then, reserve it all. With all of that resource, it's very easy to come and be aware of the truth around us, but yet again, it's our wit that defines us that does not give away resources for free. The world isn't butterflies and rainbows, and people need to be more independent and aware of the world. That's why it is simply a test. And boy do so many people fail that test and fall into arrogance like the mindless majority of society, all simply because they won't admit there's another side to look at.
I could also say that I related to Naruko a lot during my college years. She hangs out with the wrong kind of people who end up rumouring her, and people sexually harass her. In actuality, she's very mature and responsible, and very, very kind and considerate for others, and tsundere. Jesus, why do I love sweet, non-violent tsunderes so much.
I'm a huge fan of melancholic endings done right and portrayals. The portrayal of everything and how even the minor things intertwine many episodes later; that's the beautiful part of what makes a beautiful series. Modern shows are all fancy and only seem to worry about massive budgeting, the art, and profit from it, even if they end up being a good show. Although, there are barely any good shows nowadays that feel as heartwarming and aesthetically beautiful as older shows (by that, I mean that more anime is being made for money purposes rather than growing a story). Everything most people like nowadays is just action and conflict. Just for the sake of it. Without reasoning. Either that or it's silly puppy love those lonely people who don't know what love is can get by with obnoxious personalities and glittery appearances, *cough* the worst of the worst.
Characters are also a desirable yet rare thing to have. They need depth and an enigmatic atmosphere surrounding them and should be appreciative and mature towards others. A good example of this would be Ishida from Koe no Katachi, and I love him for how kind he is to try and communicate with her. Then, you have your enigmatic characters, which never seem to be common at all. Characters need to be round or dynamic for them to work. They need to have human behaviour to feel real and should react a lot, and differently than they usually would in scenarios.
I miss shows when they weren't all about money-grabbing and art because art in itself =/ a good anime at all. Ever. You can make a story out of stick figures and if everything else is wonderful, then I'd somewhat unironically enjoy it.
