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I'm supposed to write something meaningful here, something that is profound and beyond the comprehension of those unwilling to look beyond the written text. My fingers are too heavy and my brain too hazy. The words are slow and constantly fading while trying to come to terms with this anime.

I want to say this is the greatest anime I had ever watched, something worthy of the 10/10 on my list. I rewatched scenes, again and again, trying to find the hidden meaning in the words of the characters shown.

I hate it I want to so hard slam my head against a wall and forget I ever watched any of it. The characters feel one dimensional but that was the beauty of it. The plot felt so predictable but I fell in love with it. I want to scream and shout in hatred but I find myself crying in happiness.

I don't know what to say about this anime, nor do I understand the hidden meaning it is trying to tell, and that is what pisses me off the most. In a story filled with misery and unrequited love, there has got to be a second layer.

I've written story, I've read hundreds of books, I've watched hundreds of anime, but this single one has caused me so much confusion I don't know what to say. It's a punch to the gut. I feel like that everything is false I feel like this whole story was meant to make me feel like I'm nothing. The only characters to find thier loves are the two I hate the most. Thought when Akane was pushing a flower into Hana's face I started crying I felt maybe for a moment she had changed.

Maybe because I never wanted to be right, this story from start to finish was as I projected and I hated it for such. I hated that in the end the main two characters aren't together, even though that is the best choice. I hate it.

Even still I give it an 8/10 the worst 8/10 I have ever watched, the worst 8/10 I will ever see. If I hate it so much why do I give it such an amazing score?

I hate it because I love. This was a story I was meant to be crying and screaming and wanting to kill people while watching. I was supposed to feel hatred and anger at the cheating and substitution of lovers. I was supposed to believe there wouldn't be a happy end. I was led by a string through every episode and I just got led along.

Them both unhesitantly walking away from one another at the end of the show to me is the great symbolism every done. It was the happiest end possible which can be seen as a confusing truth when you just read the words.

It can be seen they gave up. Though I would argue the opposite, they turned away from each other because they were unwilling to give up on their idea of love. They didn't want to be replacements for anyone while at the same time making someone be a replacement for them.

Do I regret watching it? No.

Do I want to slam my head into a wall? Yes. 1000x yes.