June 28th, 2009
First fanfic.
Name of the fanfic: Eternal love
Be posted on:
Sakagami Tomoyo FC - Animelist.net
TomoyoxTomoya FC - Animelist.net
"I've been a delinquent for a while. Yet now..."
The guy walks down the hill, thinking about his previous life in depress. He, for one, is a good guy whom may got many girls had fallen on, but despite his good-looking appearance and a cool behaviour, Okazaki Tomoya was failing at his own life quite badly. He managed to have a girlfriend, or like he considered, a lover, yet he broke up with her when she loves him the most.
No, it's not like he's tired of her, Tomoya loves the girl dearly in his heart. And he cares about her like she was his most precious person on earth, or should I say, she IS his most precious person on earth even for now. However, the girl has a bright future waiting ahead. She is a great one, a complete opposite of him. The girl can do anything she wants and when she has a goal, she will achieve it no matter what.
And on her way, this guy is standing.
She has fallen in love with him, unconditionally. She loves him with all her heart and she wished to be with him forever. But she has her own goal too. Okazaki Tomoya may be a punk, but he is not a fool, he knows what will happen if they keep being together.
And it's not good.
For both.
So he decided. A nuisance shouldn't exist. Or even if it exists, it shoudn't be a nuisance. And he broke up with her.
At first, she asked him if that's a joke.
Then, she asked him why.
After that, she asked him what she should do.
Finally, she cried.
There is nothing he can do. She knew that's inevitable. She can't possibly achieved her goal with him around.
But she does love him just so much.
She doesn't want to be lonely, or rather, doesn't want to go on without him.
No matter what she said, the guy shook his head. His shady eyes looked down at the ground, as if he was apologizing.
"It's not your fault." That was she thought.
"It's not anyone's fault, it shouldn't be."
But they can't continue to be like this. She's aware of that.
She knew it's coming. And she can't avoid it.
So she cried.
What else can she do? No matter how strong she is, she still is a girl, a love-struck girl on top of that. She used to conquer every obstacle on her way, so now she can't keep her beloved "nuisance" in her life. She doesn't know how.
"Tomoya..." the girl bites her lips.
"There is nothing we can do. I love you, that's why you have to go without me."
"It...is stupid. You are not stupid, right? You...are...always kind. You won't do that to me, right?" the girl looks at him once again, tries to reach his eyes.
"I don't want to either, but..."
"THEN DON'T DO IT." she can't hold herself back anymore.
"Tomoyo..."
"What's the problem here? I have already done my job, the trees are saved. Why can't I be with you?" Sakagami Tomoyo shouts. With tears on her face, she looks like a kid who can't get her candy when it's right in front of her.
"Like I said, your future..." Okazaki Tomoya replies with a weak voice, his head is looking down at the white snowy road. He now is a graduated student, and can't look at his junior's eyes.
"Don't give me that crap. You know my future is meaningless without you."
"Nonsense!"
"Tomoya?"
"If you don't want me to stop loving you, then do as I said."
"..."
"Please..."
And with that, he walks pass her. The figure that covered in white shivers, snow on her shoulders, snow on her silver hair. She looks so small, lonely and adorable. Yet he walks pass her like she was an iron statue. His footsteps become deeper, as if he's sucking down by the white-colored fragments. His body is so heavy, his chest hurts like it got stung by a thousand needles, his eyes are blurry like a mirror after you took a hot bath.
He's crying.
He hasn't cried for years. After his shoulder got injured. And now, that dignified-looking guy is crying.
Tears in his eyes.
Tears on his face.
Tears pass his lips and drop to the ground. And get absorbed by the freezing snow.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tvos4SDJacU
A year later. Spring.
Sakura petals are falling, or flying, or sliding, through the space. Sakagami Tomoyo goes through the road that has lines of sakura trees, the petals keep dancing with the wind, touching her cheeks like they're comforting her. She takes another look at the sky, wondering something in her mind.
She now is the last-year student, also the president of the student council. She has many work to do, and she has many goal to achieve. She want to be successful. For some reason, that may be the only thing she can do now.
And then, she walks up, to the school that holds so many memory she can never forget...
A year later. Summer.
The garbage collector goes around the road again, picks up all the litter he can find and wipe out the leaves that falling around.
He gets up and looks at the sakura trees. This road looks so dear to him, and he told himself to protect the place as much as he can, no matter what it takes. His friends now all have a job, even an idiot now is a taxi driver who gets 2 days off a week now.
He smiles.
He has always stuck at his life. That's why he didn't want to drag anyone back with him. He failed, yet he accepted it and try to live on. He always smiles, or laughs, at others, he let them shared their feelings with him, but he never shared his. The guy is pretty lonely. He is the type that can get anything he likes, but he tends to leave it at that and wish someone better than him takes a good care of it.
In the end, he has got nothing.
At all.
Picks yet another can of coke. He smiles a little bitterly.
He...has to walk forwards too, doesn't he?
A year later. Autumn.
The garbage collector now is a office worker. He has a decent salary monthly and a group of friend even. He lives his life day by day like a TV schedule, nothing unpredictable, nothing makes he yells, nothing makes he laughs his lungs out.
He sighs, walking slowly up to the road where has the sakura trees alongside. He didn't know the sakura trees in Fall can be beautiful like this, or, as a lonely guy, he sees everything with the red-colored beautiful?
He doesn't if the sakura trees can be in red in Autumn. Or maybe it's just because the sun is setting on the East. It reminds him of the conversation with a girl.
A girl with a silver hair.
A girl with a silver hair that dyed in red of the sunset.
They were talking about their lives, their ideas of life and stuffs in a scene like this. Even though it was so far away the guy can't remember much about it, but in his heart the girl's face is still as clear as the sky, he can still remember that day when they sit beside each others, under the sky with some clouds covered with a slight dark red color. The talk was blown gently by the wind, the same as the girl's hair.
She was a beauty, no one could deny that.
And he wanted to be with her.
She knew it and accepted it.
Her name reaches his mind again. Slowly, clearly and echo repeatedly like the ocean waves. How gentle, how cool, how nice...
"Okazaki-san."
He turns back, that's a girl in his office. She is kind and sort of shy. She sometimes makes tea and coffee for people is the office too, many guys like her but she just smiles back to everyone she meets.
Okazaki Tomoya walks down after gave the trees another look. As if to say "I'll come back."
A year later. Winter.
Snow is falling.
There is an important event this year: a successful woman made her way to be the mayor of the city. To say how it's done. It's a lot of work from the woman herself and the ones that supported her. She is kind, talented, strong, beautiful and all. So many people roots on her. She is like an political idol of the city now.
And there is a rumour that she is going to marry another successful young politician. He is a good guy according to the civilians, so they of course are congratulating them for being a perfect match. His proposal will be an event in a expensive restaurant where they will have a party for her being a mayor tonight.
And under the sky of the snowy evening. An office worker who hasn't read newspapers or watched TV for years is walking on the crowded street, beside him is a woman who works at the same office as him. They walk like a couple, but there is something isn't right. The distance between them is not far, but not as close as a couple either. The woman is definitely in love with this guy. On the other hand, he doesn't seem to care about anything surrounding.
His life has been like that for 4 years already.
They just have their day off today, so they decided to go to the expensive restaurant in town, to cheer for the new mayor. Or so the woman told him.
As they walk in, the centre of the main hall is unoccupied, just like there is some kind of drama will take part there. And yes it is, the mayor is in there, and beside her is a great politician guy that was mentioned earlier.
The guy knees down, takes out a little box, and opens it.
A beautiful ring is inside.
The crowd around them applause.
Very loudly.
So loud that the office worker can't stand it.
So he turns around and walks out.
At that moment, the mayor sees.
She sees him.
Her world suddenly becomes blank. And ignore the young politician, also the big crowd, she runs after the office worker.
The snow is still falling. But her body doesn't feel the cold, because in front of her is the figure that is as warm as a camping fire in a tropical forest. The figure didn't change much. He sure is taller, and older, his eyes aren't bright and active like 4 years before but shady and tired. However, unlike the last time, now he is looking at her.
"Tomoyo..." he says.
She rushes up and hug him with all her might. She doesn't care about anything else. As long as he is here, it's fine. She doesn't allow he to go away again. Ever.
"Tomoyo... you're...successful now."
The guy doesn't know what to say. Tears again drop from his eyes. He hugs her back, covers his face in her hair and shoulder. His heart hurts. It beats too fast he feels hard to breath. Or it's 2 beats of 2 hearts? Since they're so close to each others, since they have the exact same rhythm, you can never tell the difference.
But who cares about that? Not them.
The crowd, the young politician and the office woman runs out and witness something incredible there. They don't understand why the mayor knows just a normal guy, they don't understand why the office worker hugs the great woman of the city as if she is his treasure.
But they all are seeing them kissing each others. Under the snow. Under the moon. Within the wind of a winter night. They're kissing.
The crowd don't say anything. They may not understand the situation. But they understand a fact that, these two can not be separated. Ever.
"itsudemo sagashiteshimau dokka ni kimi no egao wo
kyuukou machi no fumikiri atari
konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai noni
inochi ga kurikaesu naraba nandomo kimi no moto e
hoshii mono nado mou nani mo nai
kimi no hoka ni taisetsu na mono nado."
Be posted on:
Sakagami Tomoyo FC - Animelist.net
TomoyoxTomoya FC - Animelist.net
"I've been a delinquent for a while. Yet now..."
The guy walks down the hill, thinking about his previous life in depress. He, for one, is a good guy whom may got many girls had fallen on, but despite his good-looking appearance and a cool behaviour, Okazaki Tomoya was failing at his own life quite badly. He managed to have a girlfriend, or like he considered, a lover, yet he broke up with her when she loves him the most.
No, it's not like he's tired of her, Tomoya loves the girl dearly in his heart. And he cares about her like she was his most precious person on earth, or should I say, she IS his most precious person on earth even for now. However, the girl has a bright future waiting ahead. She is a great one, a complete opposite of him. The girl can do anything she wants and when she has a goal, she will achieve it no matter what.
And on her way, this guy is standing.
She has fallen in love with him, unconditionally. She loves him with all her heart and she wished to be with him forever. But she has her own goal too. Okazaki Tomoya may be a punk, but he is not a fool, he knows what will happen if they keep being together.
And it's not good.
For both.
So he decided. A nuisance shouldn't exist. Or even if it exists, it shoudn't be a nuisance. And he broke up with her.
At first, she asked him if that's a joke.
Then, she asked him why.
After that, she asked him what she should do.
Finally, she cried.
There is nothing he can do. She knew that's inevitable. She can't possibly achieved her goal with him around.
But she does love him just so much.
She doesn't want to be lonely, or rather, doesn't want to go on without him.
No matter what she said, the guy shook his head. His shady eyes looked down at the ground, as if he was apologizing.
"It's not your fault." That was she thought.
"It's not anyone's fault, it shouldn't be."
But they can't continue to be like this. She's aware of that.
She knew it's coming. And she can't avoid it.
So she cried.
What else can she do? No matter how strong she is, she still is a girl, a love-struck girl on top of that. She used to conquer every obstacle on her way, so now she can't keep her beloved "nuisance" in her life. She doesn't know how.
"Tomoya..." the girl bites her lips.
"There is nothing we can do. I love you, that's why you have to go without me."
"It...is stupid. You are not stupid, right? You...are...always kind. You won't do that to me, right?" the girl looks at him once again, tries to reach his eyes.
"I don't want to either, but..."
"THEN DON'T DO IT." she can't hold herself back anymore.
"Tomoyo..."
"What's the problem here? I have already done my job, the trees are saved. Why can't I be with you?" Sakagami Tomoyo shouts. With tears on her face, she looks like a kid who can't get her candy when it's right in front of her.
"Like I said, your future..." Okazaki Tomoya replies with a weak voice, his head is looking down at the white snowy road. He now is a graduated student, and can't look at his junior's eyes.
"Don't give me that crap. You know my future is meaningless without you."
"Nonsense!"
"Tomoya?"
"If you don't want me to stop loving you, then do as I said."
"..."
"Please..."
And with that, he walks pass her. The figure that covered in white shivers, snow on her shoulders, snow on her silver hair. She looks so small, lonely and adorable. Yet he walks pass her like she was an iron statue. His footsteps become deeper, as if he's sucking down by the white-colored fragments. His body is so heavy, his chest hurts like it got stung by a thousand needles, his eyes are blurry like a mirror after you took a hot bath.
He's crying.
He hasn't cried for years. After his shoulder got injured. And now, that dignified-looking guy is crying.
Tears in his eyes.
Tears on his face.
Tears pass his lips and drop to the ground. And get absorbed by the freezing snow.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tvos4SDJacU
A year later. Spring.
Sakura petals are falling, or flying, or sliding, through the space. Sakagami Tomoyo goes through the road that has lines of sakura trees, the petals keep dancing with the wind, touching her cheeks like they're comforting her. She takes another look at the sky, wondering something in her mind.
She now is the last-year student, also the president of the student council. She has many work to do, and she has many goal to achieve. She want to be successful. For some reason, that may be the only thing she can do now.
And then, she walks up, to the school that holds so many memory she can never forget...
A year later. Summer.
The garbage collector goes around the road again, picks up all the litter he can find and wipe out the leaves that falling around.
He gets up and looks at the sakura trees. This road looks so dear to him, and he told himself to protect the place as much as he can, no matter what it takes. His friends now all have a job, even an idiot now is a taxi driver who gets 2 days off a week now.
He smiles.
He has always stuck at his life. That's why he didn't want to drag anyone back with him. He failed, yet he accepted it and try to live on. He always smiles, or laughs, at others, he let them shared their feelings with him, but he never shared his. The guy is pretty lonely. He is the type that can get anything he likes, but he tends to leave it at that and wish someone better than him takes a good care of it.
In the end, he has got nothing.
At all.
Picks yet another can of coke. He smiles a little bitterly.
He...has to walk forwards too, doesn't he?
A year later. Autumn.
The garbage collector now is a office worker. He has a decent salary monthly and a group of friend even. He lives his life day by day like a TV schedule, nothing unpredictable, nothing makes he yells, nothing makes he laughs his lungs out.
He sighs, walking slowly up to the road where has the sakura trees alongside. He didn't know the sakura trees in Fall can be beautiful like this, or, as a lonely guy, he sees everything with the red-colored beautiful?
He doesn't if the sakura trees can be in red in Autumn. Or maybe it's just because the sun is setting on the East. It reminds him of the conversation with a girl.
A girl with a silver hair.
A girl with a silver hair that dyed in red of the sunset.
They were talking about their lives, their ideas of life and stuffs in a scene like this. Even though it was so far away the guy can't remember much about it, but in his heart the girl's face is still as clear as the sky, he can still remember that day when they sit beside each others, under the sky with some clouds covered with a slight dark red color. The talk was blown gently by the wind, the same as the girl's hair.
She was a beauty, no one could deny that.
And he wanted to be with her.
She knew it and accepted it.
Her name reaches his mind again. Slowly, clearly and echo repeatedly like the ocean waves. How gentle, how cool, how nice...
"Okazaki-san."
He turns back, that's a girl in his office. She is kind and sort of shy. She sometimes makes tea and coffee for people is the office too, many guys like her but she just smiles back to everyone she meets.
Okazaki Tomoya walks down after gave the trees another look. As if to say "I'll come back."
A year later. Winter.
Snow is falling.
There is an important event this year: a successful woman made her way to be the mayor of the city. To say how it's done. It's a lot of work from the woman herself and the ones that supported her. She is kind, talented, strong, beautiful and all. So many people roots on her. She is like an political idol of the city now.
And there is a rumour that she is going to marry another successful young politician. He is a good guy according to the civilians, so they of course are congratulating them for being a perfect match. His proposal will be an event in a expensive restaurant where they will have a party for her being a mayor tonight.
And under the sky of the snowy evening. An office worker who hasn't read newspapers or watched TV for years is walking on the crowded street, beside him is a woman who works at the same office as him. They walk like a couple, but there is something isn't right. The distance between them is not far, but not as close as a couple either. The woman is definitely in love with this guy. On the other hand, he doesn't seem to care about anything surrounding.
His life has been like that for 4 years already.
They just have their day off today, so they decided to go to the expensive restaurant in town, to cheer for the new mayor. Or so the woman told him.
As they walk in, the centre of the main hall is unoccupied, just like there is some kind of drama will take part there. And yes it is, the mayor is in there, and beside her is a great politician guy that was mentioned earlier.
The guy knees down, takes out a little box, and opens it.
A beautiful ring is inside.
The crowd around them applause.
Very loudly.
So loud that the office worker can't stand it.
So he turns around and walks out.
At that moment, the mayor sees.
She sees him.
Her world suddenly becomes blank. And ignore the young politician, also the big crowd, she runs after the office worker.
The snow is still falling. But her body doesn't feel the cold, because in front of her is the figure that is as warm as a camping fire in a tropical forest. The figure didn't change much. He sure is taller, and older, his eyes aren't bright and active like 4 years before but shady and tired. However, unlike the last time, now he is looking at her.
"Tomoyo..." he says.
She rushes up and hug him with all her might. She doesn't care about anything else. As long as he is here, it's fine. She doesn't allow he to go away again. Ever.
"Tomoyo... you're...successful now."
The guy doesn't know what to say. Tears again drop from his eyes. He hugs her back, covers his face in her hair and shoulder. His heart hurts. It beats too fast he feels hard to breath. Or it's 2 beats of 2 hearts? Since they're so close to each others, since they have the exact same rhythm, you can never tell the difference.
But who cares about that? Not them.
The crowd, the young politician and the office woman runs out and witness something incredible there. They don't understand why the mayor knows just a normal guy, they don't understand why the office worker hugs the great woman of the city as if she is his treasure.
But they all are seeing them kissing each others. Under the snow. Under the moon. Within the wind of a winter night. They're kissing.
The crowd don't say anything. They may not understand the situation. But they understand a fact that, these two can not be separated. Ever.
"itsudemo sagashiteshimau dokka ni kimi no egao wo
kyuukou machi no fumikiri atari
konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai noni
inochi ga kurikaesu naraba nandomo kimi no moto e
hoshii mono nado mou nani mo nai
kimi no hoka ni taisetsu na mono nado."
Posted by _Forte_ | Jun 28, 2009 6:44 PM | 0 comments