ChibiAyane's Blog

Still have no money. My sister quit smoking, which is awesome. We have no extra mouths to feed (unless you count our pets). My mother is appealing her disability claim. In order to do so, she had to quit working altogether, which is really just making things more difficult. If it weren't for my Aunts who live next door, we would have died of hunger by now.
On August 18, 2009 I had spine surgery. A fusion of L5 and S1 vertebrae. Still recovering, it's very difficult to cook, because I can't stand for more than 10 minutes without excruciating pain. I miss cooking so much, you would not believe how much! T_T
I also had a few computer problems. My old computer somehow acquired a "worm" My poor baby! *sniffles* Anyway....I got a new computer, a laptop this time. I love it.

I miss my MAL friends so much! I miss Lofoc and Yonnigo and .....well I would say Jelli and Edy but I've been talking to them on Facebook and other such things. I even exchanged mailing addresses with them! ^_^
I miss all of my Food Club friends. Hey, if anyone wants to get ahold of me, I'm on Facebook as Christine M. Ison.

...................There really isn't anything else to report.....XD TAH!

o_o Goodness, it's been over a year since I actually did anything on here.....I am so ashamed....I got sucked into Facebook. I miss being here though.....I wish I could spend more time on the computer without getting sore or tired or running out of daylight....or night for that matter....the worst is when you try to go to bed after you've finished everything only to look up and see that it's morning...=\

Oh my go--....wait, I'm atheist!
It's been ages! ....I have nothing to report....my life has been effectively uneventful.....o_o;

My household, with everyone put together, gets a whopping $15,000 a year. -_- Less than adequate. o__o I only get paid ONCE every month.
I shop at ALDI most of the time...>_< I hate that place! Their produce isn't trustworthy! The Farmer's Market is getting expensive! O_O I didn't manage to grow anything this year because at the crucial point in plant growth it FLOODED! <>_<> There is almost NO food in the house! We've been having to go to Free Food Pantries! Our energy bill is STILL at $1,000 and the fees are going up! On top of that, our house's wiring and crap isn't up to code! I haven't paid rent in almost a year! (I love my landlord! He's a lifesaver!) I owe him so much, it isn't even funny! We're really close to having the cable cut off (which includes the internet) My family and I have prescription drug costs up the ass! (hooray for injuries and genetic diseases!)
I have pets to feed. (I will NOT get rid of them! I buy THEM food before I buy my own!) One of my cats is going blind! I can't afford to get my dog fixed. Our car probably isn't going to make it this winter! We don't have the money to get it fixed and we do NOT have the money for another one. My mother is getting to the point where she can't work, her hands are literally wasting away. My mom fractured her leg again but refuses to go to the doctor because she has no insurance. Her application for disability was denied! I don't have a father to rely on! My sister is disabled, so am I, so is our housemate (who also happens to be a drug addict!)! I have allergies that are driving me INSANE! No allergy medications are working! I have to deal with a three-year-old every weekend! I have a headache! The same one I've had for WEEKS! I'm out of my regular sleeping pills (insomniac) I'm hungry, sleep deprived and I just wanna relax! But I can't! I'm so worried about everything that I can't even DAYDREAM! I want to paint but I can't concentrate enough on it to make something worth while. I haven't bought myself anything since my birthday! My sister's cigarette addiction puts a big dent in our thin wallets! We have no food! And I don't get paid until next week FRIDAY! X_X

I'm sorry. I'm venting.....I apologize....shoot me....please!

I still haven't renewed my ID......

I don't know what it is with music and I but.....today I seem to be ........controlled by it?....entranced? ^_^ Enjoying it too much!............I dunno......x_x ......

I love music. I've always loved music. I suppose that's why I love to sing and play instruments......I've even written my own music....
Sometimes it seems as if every note just resounds in my head like in a cathedral or something....x_x;...........................................I'm starting to sound like some stoner.....I'm stoned on music! x_X SHOOT ME!