"I had wept at that incredibly beautiful smile Horriki showed me, and forgetting both prudence and resistance, I had got into the car that took me here. And now I had become a madman. Even if released, I would be forever branded on the forehead with the word "madman", or perhaps, "reject".
Disqualified as a human being.
I had now ceased utterly to be a human being."
- No Longer Human by Osamu Dazai