Ok. So a little bit about me. I decided to rewrite my “about me” section. Indeed I am 33 years old. female from Kansas. Where I have only just recently found out that there are a couple of people here who like anime like I do. I kind of always figured that I was the only one here in the sticks where they only cared about cows/wheat/corn/and bars.. I hate living where I am, but I choose to live here because of my mother who is 81. We both are disabled. But I didnt want to leave her here by her self with no kind of support or someone to talk to. We live in the country. But luckily we have cable. *huggles the damn cox cable guy* And so far she's doing fine. So if my being here and getting her help from intown to come out here is enough for her then I am being helpful.
I love music. I like almost any kind of music. And if I haven't heard of it more then likely i'll open up rhapsody and look up the artist and listen to it. I guess my favorite kind of music is mostly rock/hard rock/metal/alt metal/industrial metal/heavy metal/black metal and some alternative. I love classical.
I play the guitar and piano. Although I don't play it like it was second nature. And I am no prodigy. I like it still the same. I find something I want to do. I go out and learn it. I don't know if its cuz im weird. But it took me two weeks to learn the guitar, and how to play it. I am not good at learning on paper. I have to learn by feel or example. I was never any good at school. I hate math. Love numbers but HATE math. I love the idea of what math does. How it equates into different things. But it dont get along with me. I cant fathom it in my mind. I suck at division. Even worse at fractions and decimals. I can barely multiply. Forget about double digits much less something like 357 x 3119.. nani sore?...
I don't consider my self normal. I think it was once said that “What's normal? Well, that's a good question. Normal is what everyone else is and you are not. ” hehehe.. *also a big star trek fan* *scowls* I hated Enterprise “beeehhh” but I was once told that everyone thinks that they arent normal. So does that mean we are all abnormal together? Or just all normally abnormal. Or are we lying to ourselves and were just average everyday normal joe's and not really special at all. O shiete kore.
Les'see.. more about me. Well I like to play mmo's I just finished playing World of Warcraft. I had played it for like 2 and a half years. I finally am taking a long break from it. I got bored of the same thing over and over even if they did come out with a new expansion. Even in the end when I got the already maxed out characters I had to 70. it was just like rinse and repeat of the same end content. Just different mob's and themes over and over again. I am very impatient and if it gets boring I'll switch. Part of my ADD I guess.
I have been a fan of anime for a very very long time tho. The first anime I ever saw was Love Hina. I remember because back when I was playing a mud called Materia Magica, I used to chat tons in Yahoo chat. And someone was like go watch it. So that was when I first found out about animes and that inuyasha wasnt a cartoon like what I grew up calling them.. weird huh.. I didnt even realize that it was made from another country. Anyways. Thats what started me. I think it was like uh.. in '00? It was after my dad died and I moved back home then to help with my mother. I wasnt disabled when I came back. I was still in collage. Studying for secretarial sciences. I also like watching J-Drama's. My favorites are Gakusen and Hana Yori Dango, and 1 Litre no Namida. Specially the last one. I cried hard. Oh Nadome Cantible was awesome too. I loved it because it was centered around classical music.
What kinds of anime's do i like. HMM, well I like almost anything.. 'cept for Gantz.. I think thats it.. I think i saw the first episode of that and i was like OMG.. and never went back... I like mostly horror/dark/morbid/strange/sci-fi/school/paranormal/detective/comedy/reverse harem anime's.. *i just recently found out what they were I mean in terms of genre... hehe* anyways so far my favorite all time anime is Fruits Basket.. :D I cant seem to get enough of that anime. I just recently read the whole americanized manga. OMG.. did I cry. Yes. I am a very emotional person. Although I dont share my feelings much I tend to keep them inside deeply hidden away. I guess in a way when I watch animes thats the only time I let my feelings out. I cry, laugh out loud.. seriously I do. You dont know how many times my 81 year old mother has wondered if I was ok. :D *loves mom* She wont watch them tho.. she's into westeren's * tilts head to the side and rolls eyes * cha. I forgot to mention omg.. is she religious. I am not. I don't know if there is a god or a devil. I don't really care. If he's there then he will either send me to heaven or hell. I will leave it up to them. What ever they are. I do believe there is something out there. Just.. not something that was written by man. But I will live my life by my morals and sensibility. I don't go out killing people and I have things that I believe is wrong and things I believe is right.
I love the night time. Its my favorite time. I also love autumn. October is my favorite month of the year. Its red's and brown's and oranges are so pretty. Kind of bittery cool. And like everything is wearing down to a slow crawl. I like the red and orange leaves on the tree's that begin to grow sleepy.
I am not usually a cold hearted person. I like helping people and listening to them. But after living this way. I've decided I want to change. I need to do something for my self instead of giving in all the time. I have always had a problem with saying no. So much so that I would give up something I liked just to run away and hide from someone because I knew that they would ask for me or my help. It got tiring. So much so I was unable to be a socialible * I think I spelled that word wrong but my dang spell checker isn't giving me an option for the word * person.
I usually stay at home because of my disability. But even before that I stopped hanging out with my friends. Well thats mostly because I thought that going to the bar to pick up guys I didn't even know was stupid. I mean don't get me wrong. I was a hell raiser when I was younger.. I wasn't a goody goody school girl who went to parochial school 'cuz my parents made me. * scowls * I hated it. I rebelled I guess. Hung around with the wrong friends. Then I ended up having to go to rehab. I think I did a complete 180. I stopped going out. Doing drugs. Stayed home and just basically stuck to my self. I am pretty much an introvert. I don't talk much or carry on a conversation with people who I haven't gotten to know, unless its something we share in common or someone approaches me first. Once in a while if something strikes me deeply tho I WILL let them know. And when I have something more to add to this I will post it. I just thought I'd make an update on my “about me” section. Since looking back now at the one that was there before was pretty much general and didn't say anything. I hope this isn't too much.