The breath I cannot take plagues me.It is an emptiness in my lungs and throat. As if I had stopped mid-breath, and then held my lungs cruelly waiting. My mouth open, throat hollow, unable to pull in air. My chest, the horrible tension on my thorax.
My limbs and muscles refuse to move. I cannot take a breath. I am choking. The pressure builds. The stillness spreads to my chest and limbs. I want to scream, to tear at my face, to wail—but I am trapped. I cannot move. I cannot move.
I must remember. I must remem—
The battle. I lost control. It was foolish. The mortals formed in ranks against me. I crashed into them. Drank from them. The temptation was too great. As I reaped, I reforged their flesh into a better approximation of my true shape. Desperately, I consumed more and more, hoping for the briefest echo of what I once was. Instead, like a fire, I burned too quickly, destroying even my host’s form.
It was raining when we fought. What if the mud and filth cover me? What if I’m hidden for thousands of years? Trapped in this prison. The horror of that idea feeds my panic. The battle is ending. I can feel it. I must will my form upright. I must… I must...
I have no arms or legs. The darkness binds me, like a cocoon.
No. I will myself upright. But I can’t know if it is working. I cannot know anything but the darkness.
Please. Let some mortal find me. Please. I beg the darkness endlessly, but the humiliation of my plea is answered only with silence.
I feel a mortal nearby. I have no eyes, no ears, but I can feel his approach. He is fleeing from adversaries. He must try to defend himself. He must grasp me.
Can he see me? He could run past me. I would be left here.
I feel his hand grip this form and… and his consciousness opens to me!
I burrow into him, pulling him down. I am like a drowning man thrown into the sea by a shipwreck, dragging myself to the surface by clawing past my fellows.
“What’s happening?!” the mortal screams. But he is silenced by the darkness—the endless darkness I have just escaped. And I have eyes.
I can see the falling rain. The muck. The blood of this slaughtering field. In front of me stand two weary knights with spears. I cut them apart, and drink in their forms, recrafting this body to my needs.
They are weak. I must move quickly. I must find a better wielder. A better host. Around me are only the dead and dying. I hear their souls retreating from this world.
The fighting has not ended. It’s moved inside the city walls. I force my new shape—limping, crawling—toward the sounds of battle. Toward a better host.
I roar. But not in triumph. Never in triumph.
I will drink from that city, but I will achieve only a grotesque mockery of my former glory. I was shaped by the stars, and the purity of my aspect. I was light and reason given shape. I defended this world in the greatest battles ever known. Now, blood and ichor drips from this stolen flesh as it decays. The muscles and bones struggle, tear, and protest the abomination I have become.
I take a breath.
“No, Aatrox,” I say, my voice wet and echoing off the dead that surround me. “We will go onward... and onward… and onward…”
𝙈𝙮 𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙨𝙮𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙢: I will be giving high ratings to shows that tell a story that is truthful and generally has less happiness. Stories and characters that have a truthful darkness to them will always have the top spot, because I am sick and tired of people liking the happy-to-go comedic dramas or shows filled with devised 'goodness' in them. (Note that the rating is deserved if any of the made points in the system apply to the show. Example: If the show has great animation, great music, good characters but a horrible story line, it will not be saved by any of the other inherent qualities and will receive a lower than usual rating for it's production quality)
10 ★ Something that is above everything else I could find on this media. An ultimo of stellar proportions that cannot be compared to the rest. Usually transcending it's genre and having the most complex and fulfilling stories ever told. With that also being on par as a piece of art when looked from every angle. They also have to make me feel them with my full pallet of emotions and remember them as the years pass on...
9 ★ Shows that are very close to being a 10, except for the fact that it lets loose on certain edges as a piece of art and as a piece of a story. Generally a lack of maximally drawn out 'character weight'/'story weight on characters', music choice being subpar to that of what a masterpiece deserves, being bland at times with it's art style that should never be subpar of that of the maximum potential drawn out, lacking in the 'EPIC' department that the 10 rated shows have ect. Do not make a mistake tho, as these shows are nearly as good as it gets. Here I might find my more 'human' side giving preference to certain shows.
8 ★ These are the shows that I really enjoyed. Although they have many flaws, lost potential and sometimes elongated and unnecessary episodes, they are with no doubt, complete shows. They have all that a show needs to entertain you whilst still retaining a deeper, provocative and rich story line with great characters to boast it and add on to it. It is also artistically on par with what a show should look like, with great music choices and good animation/art. Definitely worth the time spent.
7 ★ Here is where we start to fall off in every category possible. Art/animation are subpar of that of a 8 rated show, music is generally less appealing than previously higher rated shows (though that may not be the case with all of them), characters are emptier and have a substantial loss of weight to them, story seems not fully complete and potential is lost more than it should be acceptable. But regardless of the many more flaws present, these shows are still generally decent to watch. The entertainment factor is still present and will not leave you with what might have been and instead will capture all that it was.
6 ★ Average. Plain. At times boring. A way to kill time. These are the shows than you won't really care about in nearly any way possible, but it would be ok to watch them anyway since they weren't the worst possible shows. Entertainment factor is now low, and they struggle to keep your eyes open on the screen. As I said at the start - Average. Not adding bonus from their good music/art choice since the stories and characters may be bellow of what should be acceptable for a 7 rated show. Still somehow watchable and slightly enjoyable for some of it's rare to find qualities.
5-2 ★ OK, anything bellow the 6 star rating is considered not worth wasting your time on. Drastic loss of potential, majorly mediocre and generic story building and characters, usually followed by today's overused colorful and fluffy art styles and animation. Bad in every way imaginable (except for the music - doesn't save the rest of the show even if it is amazing), varying from the 5 stars to the 2 stars depending on how much it missed in it's structure, giving away a star every time a major element is bad/missing.