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No need worry, all is appreciated. Thanks brother <3 <3 <3

Hope you've been doing okay too ~

> I've been saving up energy for years! I gotta produce some results, even if it's for nothing other than to show myself that I can still commit to my long term goals. I always push the people in my life to want better for themselves, and I watch them do it while they thank me for supporting them. At the same time, I struggle so hard to follow my own advice...

I totally get ya, sometimes things are easier said than done. But it doesn't mean we don't have the power to commit to whatever we can do. Don't give up and always hang in there Juxitr-san!

> I've never even done mine, so I'm kinda excited to do it. It might just be collages of my favorite media or characters, but it's still a place to start. Yours looks pretty clean for the most part but, yeah, updating can be fun.

That would be a nice start. I gotta do that for my blogs too lol, they look way too good to just leave back....

Already lookin great with that wallpaper of best boy ~

> Life is more fun when you have surprises and things to look forward to, so I do ultimately welcome whatever my near future holds. But knowing that these days I've enjoyed as I did are about to become a memory still floods me with sadness. People are resilient and we will all get there, but we need to remember that the journey is just as meaningful as the destination.

Some things tend to come and go, and we all have to come to terms with the fleeting nature of life. Taking value in the journey is the way to go, appreciating the past, embracing the present, and staying strong for the future. I'm sure you'll be alright wherever you go mate, just as I wished for things to turn out for my future long ago as I had talked with you long ago.

Talking with you just made me realize that we've both come along way from being just a bunch of reddit hooligans...

> Psychology is a fun one. I sometimes wish I'd taken more than just the one class I needed for my degree. But I also regret not doing a math minor...I miss school, man, lmao.

I don't miss Biochem though, that can burn to ashes for all I care lol

> So now you understand why Kirei is wife. FHA was really fun and I took forever to get through it because I didn't want it to end...You'll get what I mean once you start playing it. What other Fate titles are you interested in?

Ofc he is, the man is an absolute babe without a doubt <3

FHA has been hyped up quite a bit where I am, and I'm super excited to get into it once I do. I feel deeply in love with the cast of FSN, so I think I'll make my time with them last as much as I can.

> Indeed. Keep the faith. Has your senpai ever let you down, enotita-kun??

He never did. I always had faith in him, and now its been solidified!

> Any time is a good time for me to hear from ya, mate. So you’ll have to tell me what you’re excited to share.:)



> I’m doing alright for the most part. I know I told ya last time that I’d be studying to go back to school…but next time for real I will be! Otherwise just spent time watching football, Hunter x Hunter, and some Netflix shows. HxH in particular was a milestone type deal for me because longer shows always intimidated me but it wasn’t as taxing as I thought it’d be. It was a fun show so maybe that’s why it was so easy, but, in any case, I feel like I could pick up longer shows more easily now.

I still believe in ya my man, take your time if you have to if it means conserving your strength! Also that's nice to hear, HxH is a great show, long running shows can be intimidating yeah, but so long as you have the engagement and initiative they can be pretty cool to follow on. I basically tackle this stuff on a common basis lol. Hope you enjoy it, and keep me tagged in to if you can!

> Elsewhere, I was thinking about doing some work on my MAL page sometime soon. Still working on getting in better shape. I’ll probably have some big life changes soon. So, even though I like the tranquility of every day life right now, I’ve gotta keep looking beyond the horizon.

I think I gotta work on mine as well, had this layout for quite some time, so I should probably do some updating on it.

Good luck with life bro, enjoy the peace, but look forward to whatever may be before you. Life can come with its up and downs, alterations and complications, any of that stuff, but keep your head high, and something good can happen, I'm sure of it ~

> How’ve you been? You’ve gotta have finished up the Fate VNs now, yeah ?

I'm doing great over here!! I was able to get used to living on my own pretty fast, and I've been managing University really well! Psychology has been a genuinely interesting topic for me to study, and for once a subject isn't kicking my butt, but instead I've been sharing a mutual dynamic with it! Its so amazing to be able to feel this way after such a frustrating year in college, and I hope I can keep this up!

And yeah actually, finished up the VN a few days ago, and now I'm rewatching FZ before diving back into Hollow Ataraxia and eventually digging further into Fate. I'm basically going into hell, but I'm quite excited for it.

> Shirou is back in the favorites, so I’ll take that as a yes. Fucking based.

Feels so good to have my boy back where he belongs. Never shall I lose sight of such truths ever again!!!

Heyyyy, looks like I caught you at a good time!! How you doing mate? Hope all has been well with you ~

> Oh cool, you finally got around to some games. What have you been playing or plan to play?

I got to replay the Spider-Man game by Insomniac recently, and let me tell you that it feels so good not having to depend on a PSNow Trial to play the whole thing. I had tons of fun with it, and I'm looking forward to playing the expansion stuff to it. I also got Nier Automata, which I'm pretty sure is a game you're quite fond of. I haven't played much of it, but with what I've tried out its some really good stuff and I'm hyped to play more of it.

I did indeed have the feeling of moving past Type Moon, but between some of my friends corru- I mean "influencing" me to read their stuff, and me being overwhelmed by the nostalgia I had for the series, I winded up pushing myself to go back to their works and I found myself falling back in love with them once more. I've mostly been hanging out with the Tsukihime side of things, which I would recommend despite how rough around the edges it can be. The manga is good and I'm excited for the remake (which does indeed have only 2 routes rather than 5 like in the original). I only saw the first Kara no Kyoukai movie, but I'll keep you tagged in for further thoughts since I enjoyed that too.

I guess somewhere deep down, I'm still the Fate lad you met long ago on that sub huh. I hang around there too, but mostly decided to keep my distance from the community since....y'know...

Calling it a challenge in my case is an understatement lol, it's really been pushing me to my very limits mentally, and at some point it got really straining to deal with. If its to mold me into the Biochem professional I strive to be then I guess they're really doing a good job at that....but since I've been still pushing hard over here, I guess I can keep on going for the time being. I really do think that I've been taking it too hard, so I know I have to keep a steady pace or else I'll combust.

AniTwitter is actually pretty chill for the most part. Aside from some occasional debacles (which I tend to stay out of), its pretty cool. I wasn't too big on Twitter either but I have met some nice people that make it worth hanging out in.

Awww, I wanted that to come around...but I totally dig prioritizing studying. I know you'll find your way too. Just as you believe in me, I'll believe in you!!!

That’s good to know, always happy to see ya well.

I’ve kinda been away from anime for quite some time as well, and taking that time to explore other mediums as I said a while ago. Watching movies every now and then, got some new games to play, and I’m even getting back into Type Moon stuff recently reading a lot of their works with several of their Tsukihime content (Kagetsu Tohya and Melty Blood included) down, and me finally getting to watch Kara no Kyoukai! Its only a matter of time before I return to Fate too....

My life at this point has basically been defined entirely by school at this point, and I don’t feel too proud of myself reflecting over that. Every class has been kicking my ass, and the effort is putting doesn’t ever seem to be enough to the point that I found myself at a dark place for how much it had been driving me crazy. I at least believe there’s still chance to turn around, but I’m still hit with a shred of hopelessness over things and I’m trying to avoid that as much as possible. I’m afraid of failure if anything, and it just hits hard, especially since the semester is about to end.

I do feel a bit down that my Reddit activity decreased as a result, while my activity on other platforms remains somewhat consistent. I’d say it’s a mixture of school and me gradually losing my touch with the site that explains my lack of activity on there. Of course, I don’t plan to leave entirely anytime soon, I don’t see myself hanging out as often as I want to nowadays. I don’t want to abandon the people I’ve come to know and love there just yet for Twitter and Discord.

So I’m doing kinda fine? I don’t know if I illustrated that well lol

Uh...hey mate...

It’s been god knows how long since we last talked, and I wanted to drop by and catch up after it’s been so long.

How are you doing these days?

> College is definitely gonna make you force yourself to grow up, but you have to be careful with who you associate with as well. The wrong crowd can enable bad behaviors that will take many years to fix. Not that I think you'll have an issue with that, but I just wanted to stress that you'll only get out of college what you put into it.

You sound like my dad when you say that lol. Don't worry, that's one of the big things that I keep in mind, and it helps that I'm not the best at associating with others...

I did see University as a way to fix, but y'know with COVID, that ain't gonna be easy...

> I definitely noticed you've been watching a ton of anime, lol. How do you balance it all with your other hobbies?

Just a case of balancing your time properly. I've learned from the best when it came tot that, and with break having come up, I'm sure as hell doing a fine job in organizing my time and hobbies.

> On the note of batman arkham, I actually didn't have a ton of fun with the first one, but I intend to play the second one in the series at some point as I've heard it's much better.

Ah, that's a bit sad. I did enjoy the first Arkham game, but I can see how one wouldn't be so fond of it. Arkham City is easily my favorite of the games, and much better than Asylum gameplay and story wise, so I hope you enjoy that!

> Yeah, definitely check out some other mediums. I think doing so will actually help grow your appreciation for each medium like it did for me. The different plusses and minuses helps me better find something I'm in the mood for instead of just forcing myself to start something new.

This is something that I always really wanted to do. I've already been doing well movies, but VNs, books, TV shows, music, games, etc are all stuff that I'd love to delve into to see the extent of where one's creativity can go when it comes to fiction. Hypes me up thinking about it lol.

> I do not have a discord. I've thought about making one but I keep telling myself to spend less time on the internet so I talk myself out of it. Perhaps I'll make one. Did you want to invite me to a serve

Well I thought we could mainly DM each other for the most part, but I can invite you into a server if you want!

I can understand where you're coming from there, I've begun to feel like my own activity has started to dwindle too. I'm not necessarily "disconnected" (though I fear the day that may come), but I'm just trying to hang in there y'know? Trying to value the time I have there.

Life has just meh overall lately. I was able to at least accomplish my time in community college, and now I'm headed to University. Covid is at least keeping me from moving out, but between that and the fact that I'll be going into my 20s next year, seems like 2021 is gonna be where I'll really have to work on this "grown up" schtick.

Moving on, funny enough, I've been watching anime alot more than ever lmao. I've been rewatching a bunch of stuff while getting into long running shows too with this pandemic and all. Same thing for manga too. I am happy to see you're still having fun yourself, and its nice to see you enjoy the Batman Arkham Asylum, the Arkham series are some of my favorite video games ever. I'd play video games more often if I had more money...

I think I should branch out to TV Shows more since I mainly stick to animated stuff on there, and lately that front hasn't been interesting as of late. I have gotten into some movies and I'm thinking of watching OldBoy tomorrow. Have fun with HA too, its been quite a long time since I dabbled in Fate content myself as well. I'm even reading another VN at the moment with Fata Morgana!

Good luck on grad school though. Work is a pain, but we all gotta do it don't we?

Just a bit of a question, you wouldn't happen to have Discord would you?

Hey Juxitr. I thought it’s been a long ass time since we last talked with one another, and I thought we’d catch up for now in the meantime. What have you been up to?

Oh, I just noticed you watched Perfect Blue, and Danshi no Kousei!

I’m interested on your thoughts on Perfect Blue, since I adore a lot of Kon's works, and I highly recommend you watch his other stuff.

Dude, that was fucking beautiful, well spoken words.

I should be doing well. Thank you for talking to me, and thank you for being my best friend <3 <3 <3

Hey, its me...

I thought I'd talk to you first before going back into the limelight of things.

Its just that lately, I've started to have this feeling of emptiness develop in me, that feeling of knowing that everything you do and everything you are is meaningless. Nothing matters, and I don't matter, not to myself or to anyone. I ended up doing some dumb shit, and deleting my reddit account was meant to be the tip of that, just falling down into a rabbit hole until nothing was left from me, isolating myself because I thought that's the only good for me, even if it still makes me feel like shit.

Maybe its because all the social distancing has started to get to my mind, and the loneliness and stress from that has caused me to have some dark thoughts of nothingness. I have no fucking clue where this came from but it really scared me.

I just started to feel more hopeless and worthless and it feels awful.

I know this isn’t like me to think like this, I’m not one to feel depressed. At the very least it’s startled to subside, but I feel terrible for thinking like that.

I just want to say thank you for worrying about me, and always being there in times like this. You’re a great friend and I’m so very grateful to have met you <3

I'm alright thank you. Just been feeling a bit depressed lately and thought I needed a break for a while. I come back sooner or later.

Love the new Megaman Zero pfp <3