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Mawaru Penguindrum
Mawaru Penguindrum
Oct 16, 2017 12:03 PM
Watching 1/24 · Scored -
Hibike! Euphonium 2
Hibike! Euphonium 2
Oct 15, 2017 1:04 PM
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Hibike! Euphonium
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Yokohama Kaidashi Kikou
Yokohama Kaidashi Kikou
Oct 16, 2017 7:31 AM
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Naruto
Naruto
Oct 16, 2017 3:56 AM
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jeonggukmyheart Sep 19, 2018 12:54 AM
Just passing by, waving~
jeonggukmyheart Apr 25, 2018 1:12 AM
I think about you time and again! Still sincerely hope you're doing well and avoiding any misfortunes. ^_^
TheRealVillain Feb 22, 2018 5:16 AM
Hello stranger. This will probably be the first time I write on this website, as well as the last. I hope you never read this message, as it would mean you have went on with your life and forgotten about a seemingly meaningless place.
Searching a certain topic on the internet I found this website forum by chance, as well as your answer to it. I took a liking to that certain answer, as it was something an intelligent and non-hypocritical person would say.
Truly, I wonder why I was compelled to write this message. Perhaps it was the wish help a person with similar problems or perhaps it's just an excuse for idling and occupying my thoughts from more important, uncomfortable matters.


Before carrying on with this message I wish to relay some information about myself.
In my past I was a pathological idler, a chronic thinker and at times perhaps a terminal worrier. I don't fancy myself a special existence. In fact I stopped thinking about any matters humans in our generation possibly can't find an answer to. I watched anime since my teens but not as much out of infatuation or adoration rather than desperately trying to escape reality and problems. Anime influenced me, it estranged me from public reality. It made me overly dramatic and intensified the way I feel. It's probably a common thing for anime viewers, even if most aren't aware of it. Doing things, and perhaps not doing things, influences us, whether we like it or not. Perhaps abusing anime as a way to avoid problems is a reason I am not too fond of it, even though there still remain a few shows I enjoyed.

Now, after giving you all this information you don't really need, I want to say a few things I find necessary in order to conclude with this whole idea of writing you.
Thinking excessively will make you unhappy, without fail. Nothing human can escape it and probably never will. Accepting the truths of this world will take a toll on your mind and emotions. If those truths don't hold practical value for your live, I'd recommend to not burn through your resources just for the sake of knowing the truth. Think about all those great artists, authors and thinkers who, at some point decided to take their own lives.
In order to accomplish things in life, discipline is needed. Letting your focus scatter in all directions will only amount to a small breeze in a turbulent world.
Most likely, we are the same in regard to how our isolation and idling (which goes hand in hand) has damaged our social perception. More than often have I thought someone disliked me or was bothered by me only to find out they don't or perhaps even like me. If you aren't used to social situations, try to consciously lower your sensitivity to others actions and words. All people that hurt are hurting themselves. Don't place to much value on negative events. People who don't spend much time with other people tend to fall in a black and white schema. If you meet 3 people a day and 1 reacts negative to you, it would probably bother you more than if you met 50 people a day and 1 reacts negative. It's all a matter of perception.

Hmm, whatelse... Yes. Baby-steps. It's a plain truth, but still, humans are what they are used to do. If your habits don't support your dreams and goals, it will be difficult to achieve them, if not impossible. We are, more so than what we think and say, what we do. Thoughts compel words and words compel action. If your thoughts and words are different from what you do, then that's the definition of 'lacking integrity'. A lack of integrity can have many reasons, in my case it may well have been a crippling fear of failure. I believe there's no shame in admitting faults and past failures, only in not changing them despite having the option.

We humans are constantly changing. Everday bears a new reality, a new self and a new opportunity, while sounding very romantic, it's not too far off.
If you change something and keep at it, you will change without fail, your reality will change without fail.
Slow and steady wins the race.

In the future, there will be, trust me, many times when you feel unhappy, maybe also depressed and in the worst case (which I don't hope) even suicidal. All of this is a certain thought response to pain and suffering. If you concentrate on negativity and problems in your life you will naturally enhance and strengthen those problems and negativity. We value what we invest time and energy in, even the negative things. If you focus on the problem you are the problem. Focus on the solution instead, and if there is no solution, then the problem is no problem but a fact to accept. Don't occupy your time with things you can't change.
Life will beat you down in the future, many times. But I doesn't matter how hard you get hit, or how hard you can hit back.The only thing that matters is how hard you can get hit, and still keep going. That's how winning is done. Fail, and still keep going. No one is a winner because they always win. Winners are winners because they try until they win. Because they keep going despite feeling bad and depressed. Because they keep going despite wanting to stop. It's so important to not run away from your pain but feel it. Only when you truly feel your own pain is when pain loses it's bite. It's the fear of pain and the fear of fear that's crippling humans. Doubt has killed more dreams than failure ever will.

Hmm.. Usually I don't like to get all philosophical like that. In fact I dislike philosophy, why isn't important for now.

Let me say, I very much commend you for giving up anime. It's a safe haven for lost souls. A way to gain experiences and emotions humans want and need but are unable to get on their own in real life. I don't look down on anyone watching anime, but may it sound arrogant, I very much have compassion.

People forget oh so often how limited their youth and time is, and I think anyone can spend it better than in front of a display if they are truly willing. But addiction isn't called addiciton for nothing and many people fall into it's vicious cycle.

if you truly want to follow your dreams, no matter how hard it is - take baby steps. Even if it's just studying for 1 minute. this one minute will strengthen your will and resolve. 1 Minute, do it again and again. 1 minute will become 10 and 10 will become a 100. Time can be your worst enemy, or best friend, depending on how you use it. It's all about stay on the right track.
I could ruminate about much more things, but taking into account that you may not even be interested in anything I wrote so far, or even cringe at it, it would be most logical to stop. In the end I just wanted to selfishly satisfy an urge of unknown origins.

I am sure you will find your way, just find your anchor in reality. As I am now, I very much can say that your 'condition' or call it state of being can be cured. I have a good amount of friends, regularly hit the gym and keep up with my studies just fine, you can too. Don't be swayed by impulses. Keep at it. Grasp your door to reality. Escapism only leads to oblivion. Doing the right things, even if it feels uncomfortable, will shape you and your perception will gradually change.

Reality is something that is created when a lot of people come together and recognize it as real. Only the things you take to reality, the feelings, the thoughts words and actions you take along with you, no matter where they are from, can have an influence on reality. If there are things from fantasies, like anime or manga that move you, then take them with you, to reality, and make those things reality.

Don't worry about being courteous, you don't need to reply. As I said, I only acted out on an urge of mine. In a week I will probably look over it once and cringe at what I have written, even though it holds true for me.

I wish you best of luck, in reality.



jeonggukmyheart Jan 16, 2018 2:50 PM
-screaming school girl scream-

You're baaaack! Probably only for a minute and only today but yaaay!~ Hope you're doing okay?
jeonggukmyheart Nov 16, 2017 5:44 PM
Been about a month, I hope you're doing well~. ^^
jeonggukmyheart Oct 18, 2017 11:30 AM
Oh... that is a bit sad to hear. I don't very much like having to part ways with the people that I meet, but I know it's inevitable, especially through the internet.

Thank you for telling me more of your story, and I will definitely make sure to watch Yokohama Kaidashi Kikou! I'm glad you at least have an ambition to work towards and don't just aimlessly wander through life like I've been doing.

In the future feel free to leave me any comments, should you ever return, though I won't expect it. And I hope you can live a fulfilling life. I will definitely miss our conversations, and I'll be sure to drop a comment if I ever think of something interesting to tell you. :)

jeonggukmyheart Oct 4, 2017 11:29 PM
Well... to be honest, I usually recommend things in the heat of the moment, and once the hype wears down and I can properly analyze something, I end up being a bit embarrassed if it's not up to par.
I ended up giving Made in Abyss a 9, but I'm not sure if I actually think that highly of it. It left a lot to be desired, especially when it came to exploring the world of the Abyss, and ended while focusing on character development of a character introduced halfway through. Buuuuut... there's still something about it that makes me want to rate it 7 or above.~ I mean, it had a lot of impact for 12/13 episodes.
As for Kaiba, after completing it, I'm not sure if it's just pretentious or...overreaching? Well, I can say that I absolutely loved the OST, and the end of every episode (except the last few) always ended with my face like (´・_・`)???
And, depending on how fast you read, manga is deeefinitely more efficient. Take One Piece for example. Many years ago I'd seen it air on TV and lost track after like maybe 50 episodes... then many years later seeing the ridiculous amount of episodes, I decided to read the manga. And I caught up very, very quickly. I think I managed to read it all in a day, actually! (A day without...doing anything else, but still, that's a feat...maybe.)
I want love stories to be sweet. They definitely give me unrealistic expectations about relationships and ultimately make me unhappy in my own a lot, but...^_^ Well, whatever. That's what imagination is for...right? If I can keep hope of true love in fictional stories, I can pretend it exists in the real world~ So when I see realistic, as you say "casual," love stories it makes me incredibly unhappy. Transparent Cohabitation, from it's premise, never promised that kind of...y'know... head over heels, happy ending kind of relationship. Just from reading the summary, it sounds like a development doomed from the start. If I had read the summary before I started reading I probably would have avoided it. However, no matter where you decide to read it, the translation on many sites is a bit sloppy, and you should rely more on the art to tell the story.

Agh, what I was trying to say is that TC may be up your alley.
...Also, sorry to hear you had a poor start to your day. It's...kind of the end of the day for me, so I suppose I'll go to bed? Our times must be vastly different.

Hope your day improves! d( ̄∇ ̄*)。
jeonggukmyheart Oct 3, 2017 8:00 PM
Ah, I have two more recommendations for you! An anime called Kaiba, and a manhwa called Transparent Cohabitation! Although you don't seem to read much manga, so you may not get to it, it's a bittersweet love story...mostly bitter. x_x

Kaiba seems to be this trippy anime with...messages that seem to go over my head? Or maybe I'm just reading too much into it, and it's just pretending to have messages. Hah... ^_^
jeonggukmyheart Sep 30, 2017 11:04 PM
Uuuuwaaahhh, the Made in Abyss finale made me tear up! Something about that show... T_T
Most of the seasonal anime I've been watching are over so now I can finally try out Nana...~
☆Glad I have such a carefree life to have time for all these things...ahaha.~☆
jeonggukmyheart Sep 24, 2017 4:07 PM
Mmmk, I'll be waiting. ^_^
You sound busy, but I hope you're able to find some time to relax too!
jeonggukmyheart Sep 18, 2017 1:24 PM
...I apologize in advance for my previous reply... I feel like I may have thrown in something inappropriate, and I forgot to edit it. Now it won't let me...
Sometimes my vulgar side slips out, I apologize. I shouldn't speak that way to someone I have yet to know, without knowing if it'd offend you.
The environment I live in isn't very cultured(?), or...rather, I should say it's just very..um, open and unashamed? I'm not sure how to describe it. It does promote individual freedom though, so I guess that's a good thing..? Now I'm just babbling. I'm not sure.
-formal Japanese apology bow!!- >___<;;
jeonggukmyheart Sep 18, 2017 12:01 AM
^_^ Oh, good, the very existence of your reply also makes me smile!

But I'm a bit sad to hear you're not doing well...

"... I'm doing math for 5-10 hours each day" ...That sounds like a living hell. I know it's not true that no one is "bad" at math because all it requires is practice and understanding...but I'm SUPER BAD at math. T_T I...only have one math left in college (if I even keep going...) and I'm going to take the easiest one..and hope for a C.
I can also sympathize feeling like I should be doing something more meaningful...but I just work and come home and do almost the same things! Either anime or...well, I don't game too much anymore. So just anime and phone games. It's a tough cycle to break.

It sounds like you have a good share of hardships... everyone has some, but you seem to have a bit more than the average person. >_< I hope I can help lighten your mood a bit through our conversations!
It's too bad I can't just "shoo" away those stress symptoms!! I can't help but think about those issues when my mind strays also, but all it does is cause unnecessary grief...especially when you feel like there is nothing you can do about them...

AH! However, I won't let you escape the premature graying club. Although the past few years have been nothing but grief and stress for me also, I started graying at age 15! And to add to my anxiety about looking old, if I don't wash my hair in chemical dyes every few months, everyone around me points it out like some kind of leprosy. ^_^ Yay! ...That's such a petty thing to worry about, isn't it? -shakes my head at beauty standards-

I find it interesting that you majored in medicine before switching. Could you tell me more about your motivations sometime? I know a lot of people only aim for that field for money...but if not that, then it takes someone with great moral values and sympathy for mankind... my opinion of you only grows, even if that's only my own impression! (Although I really cannot ever understand enjoying a "fun" academic environment...with math. Haha. ^^;) You do sound like a very intelligent person, though, so much so that if I compare our snippets of conversation, I wish I could just...erase mine. Ahaha.

So, does your "idle" mode mean that if you're not completely focused on a specific task or train of thought, you get stressed out from thinking too much about current physical or metaphysical problems?

....Ah...social interaction...sounds a bit dangerous for you... somehow...>_<

I remember reading somewhere about how having pen pals or anonymous support groups is actually quite therapeutic! It's like writing in an interactive diary where there are (hopefully) only people that want to sympathize with you and support you from the sidelines. ^_~ I'm glad you can organize your thoughts here a bit.

Ah...Freedom? FREEDOM! I love the feeling of ripping off the modern-day womens' torture device that's obligatory in American society after a hard day's work. ..!! ...Yeah, the bra.
...Erm... that may be far more TMI than intended, but I may leave it here. It is unnecessary crap, after all. Honestly, some of the things that are expected of women... tick me off a bit sometimes. Beauties with long flowing hair, perfect proportions, hairless like a baby, and face painted like clowns everyday! ♡ Oh, joy... I'm sorry I couldn't think of another topic...right this moment for equivalent exchange. >_<
(Ah...please don't think I'm some kind of super-feminist or anything... Ah, man, this whole paragraph needs to be deleted but I'll just come back later and do it since it's tough to type all this on my phone >_< whyamitypingstilllol*DELETE***********

I've only seen the first season of JoJo and a bit of the second, but yes, totally agree that the randomness and stupidity make it extremely enjoyable~

Nana=sadness... Aahhh... the best things seem to be filled with sadness...(Mystic Messenger...) I'll try to brace myself before I watch it.

I'm trying not to lose hope for my dream. I still practice drawing in my spare time but life is a bitch...and work, family problems, money problems, and the general gloominess of humanity gets in the way. :'D At the very least... I'd like to create a webcomic...maybe a mobile app and an otome game...and an animation. If people can like my stories, I may be able to push through and focus on my dream! Thanks for hoping for my success, even as just a kind of selfless nicety.

Ah, I found it super interesting that that stood out to you in my pictures... Although there's no deep reason for it! Since that specific character from my mobile game always wears a cross because he's Catholic, I just drew a version of me that matched him. I suppose it could also represent how I always try to emulate the good traits (and physical traits apparently lol) of the characters I admire from anime or games. I have zero interest in religion, although I was baptized Catholic also. My father is an atheist that constantly and (distastefully) bashes every religion, and my mother is also Catholic who doesn't care much for organized religion and keeps it to herself. :) Random facts...not sure if that was really important.

Anyways.
You did inspire me to draw this new picture as my avatar! It's supposed to represent what I felt when you mentioned that...it took me by surprise, but... I'm unable to really analyze how I felt. I am very forgetful...every day I seem to forget something important...

Anyway. Again. I will try to be well, as you try, and I can only hope we both actually be well and catch a break from reality here and there...

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jeonggukmyheart Sep 15, 2017 11:51 PM
-poke-

How are you? :D
You're like my only friend on here lol so I thought I'd check up on your list. How is JoJo? You're quite far ahead of me on that series(es..?)

And you added Made in Abyss! Yes! Still not..entirely sure how I feel about it, but I keep wanting to watch more, so I suppose that's a good thing?

Oh, and I just downloaded a few episodes of Nana to watch at work, since I remembered your recommendation! Eh..uhm..I mean...after work, heh... >_> Um...okay, no, I actually...usually have too much free time at work, but hey, that's good for my anime addiction, no?

Hope you're doing well~ annyeong~
jeonggukmyheart Sep 1, 2017 4:26 PM
Ah, thanks! I drew it in a bit of a hurry, but it's supposed to be me as one of the characters from Mystic Messenger! ^_^ And..Yeah, it really has messed up my sense of sleep so I don't suggest anyone play it unless they have lots of free time...

And, hey! Sounds like me. College and awkward social life...which actually isn't true. I decided to do college online so I could avoid awkward social life, haha. Now it's nonexistent social life. Quite nice, actually.

Hmm... I feel like at this point in time people would rather go extinct than sacrifice their individuality!! I can't really decide on that myself... but it's too sad to think about how insignificant we and our struggles are...>_< Maybe that's why people's individualities keeps getting stronger and..weirder.

And please don't stop with your reflections, it's become a part of my weekly/monthly/wheneveryouanswer routine! I didn't think I was respending well enough for you to keep sharing, but I'm glad that's not the case. ^_^

AHHH!! You haven't watched Kemono no Souja Erin!?!?! I should have noticed sooner!! In my book, it's definitely on par with Kino/Mushishi/Ghibli films, and very worth the watch. Although it does seem to have a children's fantasy story feel at the beginning, it ends up as a brilliant coming of age story. It pretty much follows the life of a little girl Erin from her childhood to her adulthood, and explores different...uh, well everything. I'm sorry I can't explain it right now since I'm supposed to be focusing on this exam but I couldn't help but reply to you!!

I can't really give an in-depth review without lots of spoilers, but I would absolutely love to hear your thoughts as you watch it. It is one of those anime which gives you a real "complete" packaging and satisfying ending. A real gem, in my opinion. Definitely watch it when you can.

Till next time! ☆
jeonggukmyheart Aug 30, 2017 9:18 PM
Ah, also I just randomly noticed you added Saiki Kusuo to your plan to watch list. I'm watching it right now, and It's quite funny. :3