This is the mysterious story of Futaba Kazuma's first patient. At 18, Futaba Kazuma went to school to get his qualification in clinical psychology. While attending school, he boards at a creepy mansion, which even has a butler. Also living there is a strange young woman called Emiru. She is suffering from a terminal illness of the heart—despair. This deep psychological problem has eerie physical effects as well: her hair has turned white, her body temperature is well below normal, and her blood pressure is also bizarre. No psychologists or counselors have been able to help cure her of this problem. Will Kazuma be able to determine the cause of Emiru's despair and save her before it's too late?
"A person can't exist alone. What makes a person is the relationships they have with others... Those people reflect your true nature. It means that a person alone can't prove they exist.
That's why people hurt themselves, and hurt others just to prove that they exist. Screaming "Someone please notice me! I'm right here!" They're all running away, trying not to be swallowed up by the dark nothingness."
Shi ni Itaru Yamai, which roughly translates as Sickness Unto Death, is a 2 volume long psychological manga that started in 2009. The story is about a young man who has just started college, studying clinical psychology. He stays
in a mansion under the condition that he must tend to an ill person when necessary. This person is a girl with hair turned white suffering from a very serious psychological disease. This disease is slowly killing her, not only psychologically but physically as well. According to her, she's suffering from a terminal illness of the heart called despair. Our main character ends up involving himself with this girl while trying to save her from her own mind and maybe even her true self.
First thing that must be said - this is not realistic, as you probably got from the part where the disease caused her hair to turn completely white. It is a manga that blends real but exaggerated psychological problems with philosophic matters (to be precise existentialism).
It has pretty good dialogue. It raises some interesting questions and the main plot point is very interesting. But I can understand that it'd be easy to see it as pretentious. It tries to juggle complicated questions and issues, but never actually manages to explore them completely or efficiently. On the other hand, it strives to make the reader think and question himself about the true meaning of existence. Not physical existence, but existence as a whole. To do this the author used a couple of psychological diseases (such as Dissociative Identity Disorder and Depression).
The search for something that confirms our existence as a singular unique entity in this planet. The goal of existing in someone else forever as a memory. I can't say any more or I'll be giving away the twist of the story.
Should you read this manga? Well it depends. I definitely think it isn't something everyone will enjoy. I think you shouldn't go in with too many expectations as it isn't an overwhelming piece. But if you want a simple and short psychological manga that poses some philosophic questions, I think this won't be a waste of time. Try and think about the points it raises and the threads they leave hanging. Reflect a bit about the true meaning of existence.
Thank you for reading and I hope I've helped. I didn't feel like such a simple manga with just 2 volumes required a bigger review so I'll leave it at that.
Following a young man as he studies to become a Psychologist and his attempts to cure a beautiful young girl of her crippling depression, Shi ni Itaru Yamai is a Psychological drama with mild horror undertones. Be warned, it's a sappy romance.
As any Psychological series should, it gets you thinking about society, humanity and your own moral values. While it has it's errors (for one, the heroine's hair is whitish blue because she's stressed by her life), for some the manga may serve as educational on the topic of mental disorders, as the Protagonist explains each of the disorders the woman he is treating is
afflicted by. Most of these facts are true.
Most of them.
I can't say I definitely recommend Shi ni Itaru Yamai for just anyone, because quite frankly it's cheesy, unrealistic at times, and reading it made me feel it lacked substance. I also must add that there are a few controversies following the hero's actions throughout the series, though I can't say what since they're so crucial to the story.
However, if you're a big fan of the Psychological genre (like me), I recommend at least checking it out. I have to say it was a decently pleasant experience, especially since there are not many series which don't paint therapy in an antagonizing manner.
I had high hopes for Shi ni Itaru Yamai, I really did.
The beginning of the story was really quick and doesn't give you time to get to know the characters. It just makes a generic jump cut to the past when the MC tells a story. The entire first part where you see him in front of the grave and having some dialogue with Minami is completely nonsense and unneeded completely. It just confuses the reader. The story gets a bit more enjoyable towards the middle because you forget all about that it's the past.
undeniable that this story has good art. The proportions are all wonky sometimes and they made this 18 year old girl to look like a 10 year old (I know that she is supposed to be small and frail but compare her to a peer of the same age, Futaba, and you can see that there is really no complexion being drawn that gives any sense of aging) This is a minor problem but it annoys me nonetheless. Besides that, the art was fine and a bit too shounen like for such a strong and serious topic.
The character development was incredibly rushed at the start and towards the end. The middle is the only good part because this is when you actually get to feel for the characters. The beginning of the story was just shallow and robotic feeling, the characters in the story (especially Emiru, regardless that she is [spoiler]schiz[/spoiler]) The characters just felt half-assed.
I'm a sucker for psychological stories even though that this manga did a horrible job at depicting the psychology, it felt rushed and out of focus. I did still enjoy it to some extent as it was just a nice short read. That's how I treated it as, a short story, considering it's minimal amount of chapters.
It's a nice thoughtful story, but the author was just way too out of touch with the subject, with amateur-ish storytelling and unnatural characters. The art was good, though.