http://myanimelist.net/blog/imprezagc8MyAnimeList.net Blogs http://myanimelist.net/blog.php?eid=92602 This conversation happened at around 3am 6/18 Ry hey your still up?! Li yeah looking up stuff for the vecor co. *vector cause i got a job interview tomorrow and bowling and a grad party Ry wow Li that too i guess lols Ry lol Li anyways ry i need to talk to you u gonna be on here for a little bit? Ry ???? i guess y? Li eh i guess hmm idklols ermmmm hi Ry lol okay weirdo Li okay would you rather me be blunt or whatever the opposite of blunt is ? Ry ... Li ? Ry just say it Li okay well i guess i just feel more comfortable just being friends with you there is no other guy i just dont think i should be in a relationship and (clishe, i know) it's really not you, it's just how i feel. you're an awesome guy but i'm the weird apathetic girl Ry i rather not talk about this online so... can i come over just to talk to you for a bit please Li i'd rather not Ry please? Li i'd really rather not would you like to talk on the phone? Ry yes Li call then lols 4/28 - 6/18 that is 51 days. I am going to text Li today when i am at work to ask if i can talk to her in person when i get off at 8. To ask her for a second chance and to just tell her how i feel about her. Sun, 19 Jun 2011 15:12:45 -0700 http://myanimelist.net/blog.php?eid=92268 "i wonder why i even bother sometimes" this facebook status has been running through my head ever since I saw it. so after a while i decided to text you "i miss you :(" and there i was... next to my phone just hoping that you were still awake at 330 a.m. ...but you weren't. so here i am wondering if that status was directed at me? could it be that you don't think that we spend enough time together? or that our relationship is not going anywhere? ....... i don't even know >< that is why i can't stop thinking about it tho. cause if it is directed at me then that means that i am failing at being a good boyfriend. i know that our relationship is moving very slowly, but you always seem to be busy. I know that you told me that you really are not busy, it's just that most of the time your friends call you at the last min. There are a few times where you plan ahead of time, but i am never there. I am never in your plans. i kind of want to meet some of your friends. then we would have a little more common ground. don't get me wrong tho i would rather it be just me and you. i just contradicted myself >< i really want to spend more time with you. we could just stay at your house and watch tv for all i care. but i know that you are a very outgoing person so i try to think of things to do. which is actually a bit hard for me to do. i am so used to being dragged along for the ride. once you told me that i should be more assertive, and there was another time that you said that your not very clingy either. i am trying to find just the right amount, and that is very hard for me to do. if i could i would give anything to see you everyday. Just to hold you tightly in my arms and never let you go. just to kiss you. just to see you smile. To tell you how much I love you. :) all of this was going on in my head for hours. i didn't go to sleep. all i knew was that i wanted to see you... but it was still dark out so i figured that i would wait until 10 to text you. "r u doing anything? call me :) " "omw to a grad party not in a good mood... i didn't really get a restful sleep.." "i see... You alright? did you want to talk about it?" "Im just grumpy from the lack of sleep.. just gonna go home after and knock out again" "Aw :( sorry if my random text bugged you." "Its fine" "Is there anything i can do to make you feel better?" "I just need sleep" "All righty well... I guess i'll talk to you tomorrow " -no answer- after that i was at a loss at what to do. i had my mind so set on going to see you, and when that plan failed... i ended up driving aimlessly around pearl city for a good two hours. then i went back home, and did nothing. Sun, 12 Jun 2011 03:18:15 -0700 http://myanimelist.net/blog.php?eid=91964 I enjoy spending time with you. I'm happy every time I get to see you. I can't help but smile when you look at me. I think about you all the time. I just want to spend all the time in the world with you. You are the total opposite of me, but I like that about you. That is what makes things so interesting every time I'm with you. but... when I am with you... you take my breath away. Words seem to disappear from my mouth. I know that I am not a very talkative person to begin with, but I want to talk to you. Before I used to be nervous around you. Well I don't feel nervous anymore, but it doesn't seem like it when I'm with you. Why can't I just act normal around you? Why can't I talk when I'm with you? Do you really consider me to be a good boyfriend? You have told me that you don't mind that I am older than you, that you like me, hell you have even said I love you hand full of times. Yet I have only told you that I love you maybe twice. I want to tell you that you remind me of my first girlfriend, but I don't know if that is a good or a bad thing. It may be good because that would mean that I have found someone to "love" again... or it might be bad because I might end up getting hurt again. The thing that I want to tell you are a bit depressing, sad, pathetic whatever you want to call it. You have told me a little bit about your life... so... I want to tell you about mine so that we could both help each other find happiness. Sat, 04 Jun 2011 17:27:50 -0700 http://myanimelist.net/blog.php?eid=90222 Everything started on easter sunday at Archie's B-day party. Had fun bowling, playing games, attempting to dance, and drinking alcohol. Later that night I started drinking again with everyone. Eventually it got to the point where I was talking with Liana I can't remember exactly what we were talking about, I am not even sure if we were talking that much either. Anyway we kissed a few times, and a little more when I dropped her off at home. Ever since then she has been running around in my head. I think I like her, but I am not sure. She is such a cool girl, and that's why I don't want to do anything that would make her not like me. A few days later I am hanging out with Babalu and he tells me that he talked with Liana. Basicly what he told me is that she likes me, and he told her that I like her. I want to ask her out. The thought of me being with her makes me happy, but at the same time I am scared. Scared of being hurt, being left alone again. Being heartbroken once was more than enough for me. Then again maybe I am just thinking too much about it. I should just ask her out and she how it go's. Edit: i just asked her out and she said yes. I feel so happy. Live each day to the fullest, that is what I plan to do from now on ^_^ Fri, 29 Apr 2011 01:00:59 -0700 http://myanimelist.net/blog.php?eid=87614 today was. well actually i am not sure how to describe it. woke up a little sweaty, and did nothing at home. later i went to the mall to hang out with Li. It was the most awkward day. I felt really weird mainly because three other people that I didn't even know where, along with two people that I kind of knew. From about 6pm to 12 midnight I just didn't know what to say. Not just to Li but to anyone. The fact that all of them were in high school was already awkward enough. The entire time I was with everyone I was quiet. Now that I think back on it, I don't think that I really talked to Li at all. Sure we talked a little, but it wasn't a real conversation. Today really brought out the fact that I am socially awkward. Well at least until I feel comfortable around the person/s. So anyway... the entire time I am hanging out with Li I felt that I was getting all these mixed signals from her. Poking me, hugging me, leaning on me, grabbing my arm and putting her arm around mine, and a couple times she took my hand put it on her chest so I could feel her heartbeat after she played DDR. I don't know what to do >< After she left I felt weird. It was as if there was in emptiness inside of me. Not depressed, but not entirely sad either. I do know that I feel like an idiot. I have so many things running through my head, mainly her. she reminds me of ........ So many similarities that it hurts. I am afraid. I don't want to go through any pain. I just want to be happy again. Sun, 27 Feb 2011 05:27:07 -0800 http://myanimelist.net/blog.php?eid=85925 So I went to best buy and got me a 500 GB WD My Book Essential. Cost about $80. It was worth it. So far I used up 50GB any comp seems a little better. Mostly games for my PSP and my DS, soon to be more anime too ^_^ Lets see what anime come out in 2011 Sun, 23 Jan 2011 02:27:14 -0800 http://myanimelist.net/blog.php?eid=85013 Well it is the start of the new year 2012. YAY! As of right now some new anime have the preview eps it should be a matter of time before other anime make a debut in the new year. As of now I have a few new years resolutions. From now on - Buy an external hard drive - Download episodes of anime instead of streaming ( I guess the OP and ED theme songs too) - Since i was sick multiple times I didn't get to keep my last year resolution of 10 push ups for each episode I watch. So I have 2,220 push ups to make up. FUCK I watched 222 episodes during the three times that I was sick....... dam. I guess that doesn't sound too unreasonable. - Up the push ups from 10 to 20 per ep - Continue to write reviews and make recommendations for every anime I watch from this point on - Put some kind of upgrade on my car - Go to a MTG grand prix Seems good so far all of them are super easy to do. Might add things later but for now this is it. Wed, 05 Jan 2011 20:15:21 -0800 http://myanimelist.net/blog.php?eid=84400 One of the reasons why I hate winter is because I always get sick. As of right now it is slightly hard to breath, I am constantly coughing, I feel like there is something in my nose but there isn't. (sometimes there is a little bit of liquid. Only a little) I am going to try and write all the reviews that I have been putting of, or at least whatever I can tonight. edit: only did 2. 14 more to go >< Mon, 27 Dec 2010 02:32:47 -0800 http://myanimelist.net/blog.php?eid=82941 I seem to have the worst luck lately. Last Thursday I got a ticket for not coming to a complete stop at a stop sign. Sat, 04 Dec 2010 05:11:48 -0800 http://myanimelist.net/blog.php?eid=82070 WTF invalid blog ID and a double post? I can't delete the extra one or edit. On another note. YAY! I got my car back. That was a lot faster than I thought it would take. Mon, 22 Nov 2010 12:23:41 -0800