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Things seem to be more stable between me and her now. It was really rocky throughout last year. How’s your love life? Settled into a city and a job now?

Yeah my therapist helped me to see that it was partly due to the secrecy and taboo of it all that I was able to do it before. Things have been up and down but right now things are getting better.

Where have you been venturing then? You've been absent from the forums must have been quite busy.

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This song sounds like the kind of music i would hear at a tavern in an RPG type of video game or something. Very relaxing though.
You sound very busy. I would hate to be changing cities but you don't seem to mind it at all.

I'm not together anymore with my fiancee but we still have this place and we are having even more sex. Somehow it's even hotter now and she wants to do it even more now that she sees I have other people who want me for sex too. But now I'm really having a hard time actually being able to do it with anyone else. When it comes down to it my body won't let me perform the act with them anymore. Only with my ex. It's weird. When it was all a secret I hardly had this problem. It was only sometimes.

So now I really don't know what to do anymore.

Hey how have you been? As you can see I have returned. I hope we can be friends again. If you are interested in what's been going on with me I am happy and open to discuss it. Has your situation changed at all?

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Between the two I just found Paris more exctiing, Toulouse has very little imo, my grandparents live there and when I last went it felt like there was nothing much to do except walk around a bit. There's also a lot of shady areas now.
Oof thats brutal. I guess for me if I am going to enjoy a fictional romance between characters I don't want it to involve manipulation on any level because for me romance is an idealistic concept and manipulation corrupts that ideal or so I think. I suppose characters have flaws but I don't know if that's a particular flaw I could forgive. Maybe if it was done differently in the show I wouldn't mind. Lol, alright well I guess he is good at saying that. Oh Beat Takeshi played a bunch of gangster films where he has like no expressions, Sonatine is one of them, it's got a kickass soundtrack too by Joe Hisaishi (he composed a lot of ghibli music.)


Hmm I see. I would counter that idea though, I think when a writer is working on a very high level those things aren't always spelled out so clearly even if they're there. Like Fiesta by Hemmingway is one of my favourite books and while it never explictly says much on philosophy or how Hemmingway views the world, it's told very strongly through the story itself. In that case, you might be right and this might just be a simpler book, although the murder aspects makes me think that its like the writer has been pulled into one of his own novels.
Hehe yeah, got so many cat photos from my brother working his photography, it's ridiculous.

True but in small places like that the shops all closed so the restaurants are dead and the menu is incredibly limited, I agree its better for bigger cities though. I never tried Hydromel, I think I saw it advertised there. There were also a bunch of little shops that made their own sweets which was cool. One thing I'll never forget was walking through the heritage city around the castle and seeing one of those haunted house amusements run by this old portugeese woman. We didn't go there but later we decided to take a boat trip on the canal on the other side of town and I swear to God the same lady was also running the boat trip event lol. It made me realize how all these events are run by the same small group and how hard they have to work to keep on top of it all. How was the hydromel?
Oh you went to Singapore, that must've been very interesting. What was it like? Will it be like a futurustic sort of asian fusion city like in Big Hero 6?
No I'm doing Applied Math lol, in my defence a lot of writers did unrelated things before they went off to become writers (Isaac Asimov studied chemistry). Yeah it's a big influence, there's that shot in Rear Window where you can see all the people in the different apartments that I always thought would be cool to try out in some way. I've read a lot of Sherlock Holmes but I don't actually think I want it to be a detective-like story. I watched Red Dessert recently and idk if you've seen that but it's a very visual film where the characters are lost in the world they inhabit. I feel like that would be the undertone of my story even if the plot resembles a Hitchcock thriller.

''i can even wear children clothes!'' hahaha that is a nice perk to have, i can also still wear my old clothes from when i was 16-17 years old. my weight isn't that much of a different compared to back then.

sorry to hear that, it must have been painful getting hit by a drunk bastard of a man. i hate reading stories when a man hits a woman, woman are supposed to be protected not hurted. (okay i'm a white knight simp hahaha) i watched terminator 1 yesterday again, and it was just as good as ever. (Arnold is giving new motivations on being more confident in myself, his acting is very stiff but it fits so much being a killer terminator machine from the future)

a 187 cm tall person wearing heels, i can't imagine hahaha. i'd be a smol midget next to that guy lol. i gotta get a new job first though before thinking about dating/improving how i look, no money means no living hahahaha. what a shame that he rejected you (sorry to hear that nyarlathothep), i can't imagine myself rejecting a girl in the future. (yeah maybe if she's on FBI most wanted list for murder and terrorism...but still i love me a crazy woman lol)

oh hype, i haven't been up to date with the jojo news but i'm so happy to hear that another part of the series is getting an adaptation. jojo part 4 was a hit and miss for most people so i can understand, the MC is either annoying or good for people and kira is a polarizing character too. (he's more loved than hated though)

yeah my bad, he did good for the US folks too. hannibal lecter is an interesting villain character for sure, i like john wayne gacy more if we are talking about famous serial killers characters. i always wonder, most of the serial killers are always so smart, have good jobs, married with one or two girls and pretty looking. and here i am being....ugly and lonely but no criminal records thankfully hahaha.

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Enough said...

Oh cool, I went to Paris and Toulouse before, although Paris >>>> Toulouse haha.
I see what you mean, just the thought of a death fight between Geralt and this dude is making me lol, I'd say their relationship is just horribly dysfunctional based on what you were saying, I'm surprised you enjoy the books if it reminds you of your ex, that just sounds like unwanted memories. Like if I see a film where there's a scene relating to a relatable moment of trauma it does not make me want to continue watching that said film. I hope the common points between you and her are all the good ones haha. I can see Geralt needing a strong woman but idk, on a different note one of the things I disliked about the show was Henry Cavill has like two expressions during the whole season. He makes Beat Takeshi look like Jim Carrey. (you might not get that reference lol).
Oh for a second I though you were saying the book's author retired to a desert island...that's a very odd premise, It must be fairly interesting.
Oooh that's a fluffy cat! I love how you got the bowtie around his neck lol. Here's two of my cats;

Oh It was interesting for like a day but we arrived when tourist seaason was over in late august so all the shops care closed. Being stuck in that cabin for a few days was hell on earth so we cancelled short and spent the rest of the days in Carcassone checking out the castle which was way more fun.
Hmm interesting, I'm always wary of superhero stuff tbh, also it's gonna be tough having a story if there's no flaws in the world. Kinda reminds me of Tiger and Bunny, idk if that's what you're after tho. I hope you do progress on your comic!
I try to look at guys like Christopher Nolan or PT Anderson to see what their first films were. There's actually a pretty clear pattern where they all made noir films because it's cheap, you don't need a lot of people and your story is usually fairly tight. So I was thinking of noir as well. I had an idea about a guy who moves into an apartment complex and starts looking at other people's windows at night (cause most apartments are quite visible at night from a balcony). Then he would see a murder (this is obviously a lot like rear window) but the difference is my main character is a bit of a loner and has to track down the murderer rather than the murderer simply living in the apartment complex. I wrote sort of up to the murder scene and now I'm completely stuck as to how my main character is going to track down someone who's left nothing for him to use.

you are lucky to have a robust father, my dad is pretty frail and sickly lol. he doesn't take care of himself very well, he is an alcoholic. well i'm glad that you didn't take the growing hormons since that could be trouble when you are older. (i'm talking about 45+ years of age) for girls, i think 147 cm is a beautiful height. (that's the same height as my granny and she is still way stronger than me lmao)

it's hard to fight back against a drunk bastard though, they could do anything to hurt you. i'm glad you didn't suffered any lasting scars or injuries from your encounter with that jerk. arnold has alot of charm like you wrote, he has a manly voice hahaha. i love the ''I'll be Back'' quote from the first terminator, the scene when he rammed a car into the police station is so good.

i'm actually only 153 cm barefoot, i was counting my height when i was wearing shoes which was 155 cm. (i'm a midget lol) 187 cm is damn tall, 6'2 i think. I know alot of japanese old men around my height, and they are living the dream! (beautiful wives and have a nice healthy family, so jealous! lol i sound like the textbook definition of a jealous virgin loser here hahaha) yeah we have alot of guys who only want to marry virgin women in malaysia, but that doesn't mean a thing to me. i'm just happy to have someone that likes me back in a romantic way. (okay that was super cringy lol)

part 6 is pretty good (badass female mc), you watched the anime version up to part 5 i guess ? part 5 is my favourite anime adaptation so far, i haven't watched part 4 but have read it before. (kira was a cool antagonist)

he is a very accomplished soldier who has done alot of good things for the french people, i'm not surprised that you admired him. i have nobody that i admired like that in malaysia, most of our soldiers (including the current panglima general) are corrupt bastards anyway hahahaha. (sad lol)

Oh boy I didn't know that, I know he wrote some poetry though. I bet his love story must be quite interesting. Lol, I hate when you search something online and it ends up constantly recommending it to you on different websites. There's a new feature on firefox that blocks trackers, its super useful. Do you live somewhere you could raise an alpaca, there's actually a bunch around here in the mountains, its some kind of touristy thing for animal lovers. Hahaha that's a good one actually, I'd be proud of that too.

oof you should watch it. Oh I thought she looked good but I was also annoyed at how repulsive her personality was, idk why she's the love interest tbh. Oh maybe you should go back and finish it, although my brother was a bit unenthusiastic about the ending, so haha maybe leave it then. Oh is it a classic? I might know it then. Oh your cat must be very fluffy then! Mine are tuxedo cats so they're short hair breed. Mine are small actually compared to regular cats, it means they can pretty much hide in any spaces in the house like old boxes, shelves or behind the fridge (don't ask me why). They each have their own unique personality too. Oh I see so you do live rural, I spent about a week once in the french countryside (my mom wanted to visited Reine once), we were in this lodge with no wifi for a week. I still remember it cause I went mad with nothing to do or google. I guess I really am addicted to the internet in that sense. I do enjoy thinking about stories, just not being forced to haha. Hmm that's itneresting, I was involved once in a project to do a Vn (I was the writer). Things dragged so hard cause the artists were obviously unpaid so it never went anywhere. I hope your comic works, whats it about? I've been trying to write screenplays since last year, I did a short film in uni but I'd love to work towards a more serious piece of work. It's super hard without funding ofc so I'm going to build it up slowly.

look at you now, a very well educated grown adult. that teacher is probably eating his/her words lol. it's inspiring to read that you grew up to be a strong person, despite having a weak body in primary school.


''so I intervened and got beaten up'' damn! i feel so bad for you (you were brave enough to stand up to that drunk bastard). that guy was a jerk btw, anyone that tries to rape a woman is an asshole. (ok i'm showing my simp/white knight side here lol) i found arnold to be a very attractive guy, i can understand his popularity very easily hahahaha. (he has good looks and that body is every man's dream lol including me)

terminator 3 ain't that bad for sure, the critics need to chill. terminator 4 maybe bad, but it was still an entertaining movie to watch.

really ? i consider myself a midget size grown up male hahaha, i'm only 5'1 and weights at a pathetic 42 kgs. my hand is super thin, i look like a scarecrow lol. guys in malaysia are sometimes cool, but the ones that i befriended with was married biker boys. (they aren't a good bunch, didn't treat me with respect and are obviously looking down on me for being a virgin loser lol) i didn't want to be friends with them either, but they were my fellow store co-workers so i had no choice hahaha.

dio was younger in part 1 for sure, part 3 he became super muscular and more mature looking + his attitude just screams a supervillain character love him lol. part 7 you can read even without having knowledge of part 1-6, cause it's a standalone expansion with different universe to part 1-6 hahaha. (skipping parts is obviously a sin for the extremist type of jojo fans but i think it's fine to skip part to get to the one you really wanted to read or watch)

sorry i don't know this lafayette guy, i just googled him now hahaha. he looks so elegant in his commander suit lol. it must be cool to visit a historic place like that, a real shame that covid screwed your visit....i hate it. (the pandemic i meant hahaha)

No I haven't but that's fuckin hilarious lmfao, there's so much backwards level fiction from that period. Another one that comes to mind is Charlie Chan, it's a white guy playing a really racist chinese detective who solves mysteries. I never watched it but I did watch Mister Moto which was basically Peter Lorre playing a japanese detective, but with a horribly bad accent, at least he doesn't have prosthetics like Charlie Chan tho haha. Ah looks like destiny wants you to read it then! It's a good one, always stuck with me. There's alpacas in the film? I hope Nic Cage fights one then. Oh I see, I have no artistic skill but I do enjoy Bob Ross drawing a little cloud of happiness, do you draw scenery or portrait?

That's true, not so sure for Watchmen if they did but yeah the Wachowski's have a tendency for 1984-ish dystopian worlds. Cloud Atlas was a very enjoyable film iI thought and it's like that idea but throughout centuries. I don't believe I read that story actually.
Haha yeah defintely wasn't watching the show cause of Henry Cavill being ripped and swinging a sword and wishing I was him. My brother was reading Eragon which I guess is another similar series, he seemed to really like it, maybe I should try it out. Atm I'm reading the brothers karamazov and boy is it long. Your cat sounds more grateful than mine, they just sort of sleep everywhere. What type is it? Oh right, you're very much into literature then I see, I had a great english teacher (and a few not so great) who definitely inspired me to get into books and he used to show films too which were great. We covered Hopkins with him actually, which is where I was introduced to that type of poetry. Robert Frost was another he showed us. I can imagine looking at it through a purely theoretical lens can make it a bit dry though. Sometimes I feel like analysing a film for example can distract from the experience. Have you considered writing then or does that not interest you? I guess painting is more your forté.

i'm the same as your mom, as in my body isn't the strongest either. (i used to get sick alot when i was a young kid, i skipped most of my sport lessons back in school because my mom doesn't want to participate in them.)

yeah you are right, both men and women need to learn self-defense if they can afford one. because you never know if you will get assaulted by a robber in the daylight when shopping. (reading twitter about robbery made me scared lol, i'd be a piece of pie for a robber to rob since i'm very weak physically) you have been attacked before in the past ? that's horrible. conan i haven't watched yet sadly, but the ratings looks great in imdb and arnold looks so damn fit in the google images lol. (i consider anything rated 6+ to be good in imdb considering how harsh the critics are there)

i think the one with bale in it was the fourth movie (terminator salvation 2009), i watched it on the cinema and it wasn't that bad. pretty good action flick movie to watch, but i watched it when i was an 11 years old kid so...i don't know if my opinion is still the same now hahahaha.

for model girls, 42-47 kgs is the dream weight for sure hahahaha. i want to aim for 55 kgs+ atleast. gaining muscles is great, i don't know why people in my country malaysia looked down upon girls who are musculars and fat....i don't understand the hate. curvy and slim girls are great, but muscular and chubby girls are nice too for me. (ok i'm sounding very creepy here lol sorry)

dio is a very sexy anime character hahaha so i can understand the love, he wasn't that sexy in part 1 but part 3 dio ? damn he looks damn great. i really loved the last fight in egypt against dio, when he revealed the world stand. (it was such an iconic moment in jojo series) my favourite version of dio is the alternate universe one from part 7, he uses a different stand/power than the world though.