daikondani | 08-06-13, 1:55 PM
I was looking through all the questions I used to ask on Y!A and found the first one
I really hate my 14 year old self right now.. be careful what you wish for..
daikondani | 08-06-13, 10:29 AM
I just watched that Cinema 2012 video. It's really cool. It makes me upset to know that I haven't been to the movie theater since last summer. I need to watch more movies.
daikondani | 08-06-13, 10:17 AM
I'm on my laptop.. but I kind of prefer my phone because I can't touch the screen. I got so used to that. My phone is the most useful device in my life though. It's like a tablet to me. It's a Samsung Galaxy S3 and my hands are small so it's easy to type. Tablets are too big for me.
The thing in Syria has been going on since my freshman year of high school. I'm a senior. I don't know how long it's going to keep going on for.
Driving in New York is even worse. I mean, I've never driven at all but my mom has and I've seen what happens. You get a ticket for all these little things and there's a police officer on like every corner. Yeah, a bus is less of a hassle.
Hold on, "cold as balls"? Are balls actually cold? I would think they're at a normal body temperature but hey I wouldn't know or anything.. That reminds me of this guy on youtube.
That's the only problem I have with english. Even though I grew up here, I don't get some sayings. There are some sayings like that in Arabic roughly translated like "Go eat the air" (i.e. "go fuck yourself") and "You don't know which way to comb over your bald spot" (i.e. "you're so confused that even you don't know what you're talking about" or something like that) I don't even know. Who comes up with these things?
Oh speaking of hair, I cut an inch off and did a keratin treatment which hurts like crazy. and I got short bangs over my eyebrows. Yay. The green washed off and my roots grew out so now it's brown, then red, then blond on the bottom but it flows nicely. I think I'm going to stop throwing chemicals on my hair for awhile. I don't know why I'm telling you this either.
Sorry I can't watch sad things alone. I'm a crybaby.
I wish I had a unique accent. That would be cool. I don't have a first language since I grew up with english and arabic at the same time so it's all mixed together. I can do a pretty good interpretation of an arabic accent in english but that's not how I really speak. Just pronounce P's and V's as B's. and say "eh" instead of "oh"
I do have a slight accent in some words like they all say "calorina" instead of "carolina" so if I'm with some friends and the state carolina comes up in the discussion I end up saying "calorina" all the time. I can barely type carolina without typing calorina first. and if I get hurt I don't say "ow" I say "ai"
I wouldn't say it's running away. It's more like let's see how far I can go but once I stop I don't really care anymore. I don't get upset or anything it's just experimenting with things. It's more like a bunch of what ifs, you know? Plus I use my phone much more than my laptop in general. It doesn't reload or anything. It's awesome. Hah, I think our sense of humor is a bit different sometimes. Or maybe we're just both bad at telling jokes.
I think the next thing I'll try out is to stop watching hentai. I had this nightmare the other day. It scared the hell out of me. Since I usually watch it on my phone before I sleep, I woke up in my dream and suddenly I was in church (did I mention before that I teach sunday school?) and practically everyone I knew was there. My phone started playing a hentai video on loud volume and I couldnt turn it off and the sound wouldn't turn off.. no matter what I would do the phone wouldn't turn off. Everyone was staring and I couldn't run away NOOO.. and then I woke up. It terrified me so much. I deleted my history 100 times when I woke up. Yep, I think I'll take a break from that.
Resolution? I'm blind as a bat. I can't tell the difference between 360 and 1020. And yet I still refuse to wear glasses until absolutely needed. Oh pokemon.. yesterday I found a shoebox with all my old pokemon cards. I had hundreds. I ended up putting them on sale for ebay. Now that's nostalgia. Selling my memories away.. I'm keeping my light ninetales though.
I ended up earning some more money from work but then spent it all on impulse on manga magazines the size of phonebooks. That pillow is probably giving me death glares . It's just not meant to be.. I can't fit him plus Mickey + Minnie on my bed.
I'm not ready at all for all that technological stuff. I'll probably move out to a little country cottage in Switzerland or something. That might even be more of an extreme introversion..
Now that's funny. You're telling ME that you talk too much? Talk more. I like it.
daikondani | 07-31-13, 11:05 PM
I couldn't do it..
I couldn't buy the dakimakura..
I asked them to cancel the order.. agh im going to regret this I know it. I can't spend $30 on a pillow now that one of my favorite bands released a new cd.. I feel so sorry for the poor pillow.. it's not you, it's me.. I hope you find someone capable of loving you more than me.. seriously I'm talking to a pillow that's hundreds of miles away. Something is definitely wrong here. Why is it so expensive..?
daikondani | 07-31-13, 6:00 PM
It's great that you're trying new things ^^ oh oops an emoticon.
How would you hurt yourself? Actually nevermind. I hurt myself all the time. Could it be caused by all the good things in the world? I'm not sure about reading diaries loudly while dressed as a poet.. but I think reading about other people's stories is interesting!
It's probably better than how Syria is these days. The government practically killed off the whole country and no one hears or even cares about it. It's sad that I'll probably never see it again. The town my mom came from was bombed and destroyed and my relatives escaped to down to Dubai. Don't worry about talking about yourself. I like reading people's stories, remember?
I've never been to Florida before so I wouldn't know. Some friends of mine drove down there during spring break every year. I get invited to come but I can never afford it so I alway miss out on the oppertunity. I hope I can go there someday. I actually like the winter. The snow, scarves, mittens, blankets, hot drinks and soup. Chrstmas lights.. plus the fact that all the bugs are dead. It's magical. I love it all. When you get cold, you put a jacket on. When it's hot in summer, you have to carry around an air conditioner.
Maybe it was a documentary..
Oh I can make waffles too.. you just put them in a toaster and pop! They're done. No I cant make real waffles.
I cant write at all. I speak fluently but am totally illiterate. Strange, huh? Yup it's super difficult. I can't even remember how to write my name and it's read right to left. Kind of like manga. I've had him for almost 3 years now.
It's just been that long. I'm trying to stop wasting my time and if I go on my computer to search one thing, it leads to another and another and suddenly it's 4am and I'm watching some lame hentai when all I wanted to do was find the definition of kenopsia. Eh? What pop ups?
Who cares about the relationship?? (Never thought I'd say that in my entire life..) look at the scenery man. I want to climb that mountain.
daikondani | 07-29-13, 9:47 PM
I got my other book in the mail today. It was underlined and had notes written all over. But hey, maybe those notes could come in handy. The other day I found a diary in the thrift store that was actually used. I guess no one bothered to open it. It was an 11 year old's diary from 1999 and it was all about how the Backstreet Boys are totally cool and how her sister always beats her up. I was thinking about getting it for some reason.. I wonder how she's doing these days?
Hm.. is it the town or is it the people in the town? New York is awesome. I'm from there which makes it twice as awesome. I plan on studying in the city. It's like a melting pot of different cultures. I'd do that thing they did in Yes Man and take the next flight to anywhere. It's way more fun to take chances and click the "I'm feeling lucky" button.
Aw man, that's true love right there. It makes me want to cry..
I can cook but if you're asking if I can cook WELL.. well, that's subjective. I like making a mess of the kitchen and trying out crazy recipes for fun. But I'm too clumsy I end up cutting my fingers, dropping the food on the floor, burning the meal, or causing a house fire. I can make pancakes with smiley faces on it and that's all that really matters in the end.
I cant write in arabic so I cant really translate it into romanized words but it's pronounced as "haf-leh" and basically means party. Oh I've been to parties since the day I ever existed. You wouldnt believe this but I used to love them before I was 8. I was a spoiled brat that wanted to be the center of attention. Got into fights and couldnt keep my mouth shut. Something just snapped and I turned out the complete opposite of how I was before. Haha my cat hurt me so many times.. one time my cat went crazy and dug his claws down my leg making deep cuts from the knee to ankle. I kicked him to make him get off and I felt bad so I started petting him and crying sorry to him. I didnt even notice my leg was dripping in blood. But I still love him ♥
It's a great movie. I think you'd like it.
The video doesnt work on mobile.. could you believe I havent been on an actual computer in almost a month?
daikondani | 07-24-13, 1:32 PM
I don't know. I kind of like to take my chances with those one cent + $3.99 shipping books from Amazon. Going to secondhand shops for books just gives me a headache and as for actual bookstores.. let's face it. I'm too cheap for that especially if they're books that are required.
Islands don't sound mysterious.. I had an image of Hawaii in my head. I was born and raised here all my life, but my parents aren't American. My mom is from Syria and my dad is from Lebanon. It must be nice to move around though. I grew up with two languages in my life so I was always interested in learning about other countries cultures. I'd travel to all sorts of places if I could. I guess it's also why I like to try anything once. The world would be boring if there weren't any new things to see and experience.
I like the sound of the flute, but not the saliva..
You could always order online? It's cheaper that way anyway, plus you don't feel any shame for buying manga when you're on the checkout line. B&N is overflowing with John Green enthusiasts and Starbucks junkies. Not that that's a bad thing.. it's just not my thing.
Oh that's too bad.. I can't seem to say the right words in the subject of death without sounding either too insensitive or too oversensitive.
Maybe this would make you feel even better?
I've been contemplating on getting one for awhile but was always thinking of what others would think. But you know what, who cares? Lifes too short to worry about stuff like that. If I want a pillow with an anime character on it then I'll get a pillow with an anime character on it. I kind of wanted to get a girl because they're cute but the girls are all naked.. I still have a small bit of dignity for when strangers barge into my room.
To be honest, I don't really know. I only read a chapter and watched 2 episodes but I bought the manga online so I thought why not get the pillow along with it and spend all my money in one package? But he's good at cooking so yeah instant favorite. There were only 3 guy ones anyway. It was either Blue Exorcist, Bleach, or Black Butler. Bleach is okay, and I don't like Black Butler for some reason so I went with Blue Exorcist. I based it more on the series than the actual character.
I've heard of the name but I can't say I know it. I don't have a youtube account so I don't follow anyone actually, but I like watching LAHWF and those kids react videos occasionally. I like to search random things and see what comes up.
Maybe he's just not comfortable with showing his feelings.. but he still loves you either way. Ah, I never asked but I could just tell. My mom wanted a girl so that's good. My grandma says I'm a boy in a girl's body, but I'm not so sure that's true.. I might be a gay boy in a girl's body though but that's probably not it either. I'm Dani and Dani is Dani and that's all I know. Just right now she was talking about me with the other grandma in arabic and she probably forgot that I can understand everything that she's saying. "Dani's a boy! She messes up things and never cleans her room. she doesn't like to dance at the parties (side note: this is some traditional thingy idk why it has to do with girls but its hard to explain), and she brings in animals in the house! What kind of girl is that?" Thanks grandma. They have this old fashioned mindset that girls have to be neat and wear expensive stuff and be stuck up. Oh and hate cats. How can you hate them? They're adorable!!
I wish I could feel like that in front of a camera. I don't even like to get my picture taken let alone act infront of one. I'm too self-conscious I guess. But I could understand the feeling of feeling like that without actually feeling it.. that didn't make sense.. nevermind.
I admit he's funny. She probably hates him after that though.
More interactions~ I wonder what type Justin is..
I was just being overly emotional and dramatic. But still, it's not something that I'd like to try again anytime soon.
Yeah I think it would be nice to escape society for awhile..
I don't really see it as a bad thing either. They're all new experiences anyway. It's just hard to cut something out of your life right away so suddenly. I want to but I don't want to.
Oh haha you see, I send messages to people like a chameleon. I tend to copy the way the other person is writing. I thought "Ah this guy doesn't use emoticons. He probably thinks it's childish and it must bother him and I don't want to be a bother so I'll stop." Everyone wins in the end. In a way it's kind of like how the guy in the interview I showed you before copied her sitting position. Did it bother you that I stopped?
See now I'm using BBCodes. I can't help it. It's like a reflex reaction.
daikondani | 07-23-13, 7:11 AM
I'll sum up those first three statements with a yeah.
I got Of Mice and Men in the mail. Apparently acceptable condition means someone beat the shit out of it but still wants to sell it online. Well now ive got something to procrastinate about.
That's awesome. I remember you saying you came from "the islands" but I had no idea what that meant. So you had all of those but not kiwis?
Correct~ wow a music teacher. Now thats fancy. I never had one in school but I took piano and violin lessons afterschool for awhile until I got bored of it and gave up as usual. Keep them in stock? Haha what do you think I am, a record shop? Theyre just songs that I like. My music taste is anything and everything that I can relate to.
Im wondering if I should buy the manga for that. I got $20 in my pocket and feel like taking a trip to the comic book store.
I'm bored of trying to be funny anyway.
I love my school but I hate school in general. My school is so open with exploring possibilities. I even got to paint murals on the school walls that will be there for the rest of eternity. They'll thank me later on when I'm famous. Did those teachers die by choice? I dont know if thats the best way to ask.. there where two teachers that died the year before I entered high school and one teacher that packed up his bags and moved to africa this summer.
It's not creepy; it's curiosity.
I never felt the need to buy toilet paper as much as I do now. But I already spent most of my money on a dakimakura and dont want to freak my parents out even more than I already do I'll wait until I got my own place or something.
I wonder how theyll react when that arrives.. I have no regrets.
Is it bad that I didnt laugh..?
Ehh.. he's my dad so i love him no matter what but we're not on that great terms like a parent and child should be. He has anger and addiction issues and was really unstable when I was a kid but he's a good person. My guess is that he's an INTJ. We have nice conversations sometimes about philosophical ideas and him telling jokes he read out of playboy. I even got him to read manga and like it. But we argue a lot since he always loses his temper and he's so strict. I think he wanted a boy though. My parents were expecting a boy anyway. All my baby stuff was blue. I was going to be named Jean-Paul Pierre. Hah.
Acting is a form of expression and art. I thought about being an actor at one point but I could never handle the pressure of the stage.
Look its the celebrity version of my personality:
I ended up crying loudly and bawling my eyes out while listening to Fix You by Coldplay until I fell asleep. Yeah I dont think ill try that again anytime soon.. but yeah im ok. If you dont have low points once in awhile then youll never appreciate yourself at your best.
Ive been thinking of trying to do something worthwhile. Like an experiment or something to prove to myself. I waste a lot of time online. And I figure none of it is really of importance in my life. So im wondering what it would be like to cut off internet from my life for awhile. There are two outcomes that might happen. I will either become more open to the outside world or I will become a hermit that only has their own thoughts as their company. My neurologist suggested I go see a therapist again but this time I honestly think I dont need it. All they do is refer you to psychologists that give you pills to make you feel numb. That doesnt solve a thing. My life is my own problem and I am strong enough to deal with it myself this time. Thats what I want to prove to myself. And I guess I need a sort of detox for my mind and get off the technology for a bit. Setting my priorities straight and all that. I'll never rely on pills to make me happy. I can control my own happiness. If I can control my urge to go on the internet then I can probably do just about anything. That fact in itself would make me extremely happy.
daikondani | 07-21-13, 6:32 PM
Hey look more words
Another story of the day:
So today my friend visited. Shes very loud but I love her the way she is. She dragged me to some party with her so she wouldnt be alone. It was really awkward and tiring. I couldnt talk much. But these people invited me to play a game I think it was called ping pong and I felt happy that people actually noticed and thought of me. My friend had gone of somewhere I forgot. The game was not ping pong like I thought it would be. It was w/ cups. I dont really remember what the point was but I had to drink a lot for some reason. Everyone was staring at me so I felt that I had to. Beer tastes disgusting you know. TodayI think i might be drunk for the first time in my life but I wouldnt know. Has that ever happened to u? I just feel sad and dizzy and cant talk or walk properly. Though I dont think I lost my mind yet. Today I was stupid. Im really a pushover. Not sure why im telling you this.
daikondani | 07-20-13, 3:32 PM
That's the most relevant thing I have ever read on the internet ever.
daikondani | 07-20-13, 3:18 PM
Embarassing story of the day:
It was the afternoon and I was minding my own business reading manga and being overall lazy when suddenly I see some family friends from the window coming up the stairs. I was freaking out trying to clean up everything for about 2 seconds but it was too late. When everyone finally gretted and sat down and all that I noticed I left my manga on the middle of the table for all to see. Oh no. Everyone was looking right at it but didnt say anything. The cover wasnt that shocking it was the chobits omnibus book which is giagantic btw. I was just praying that no one opened it. That added to the embarrassment of being in my pjs at 2pm with messed up hair and dark circles. Then all of a sudden my dad who was sitting next to me got up to go to the bathroom and I noticed he was sitting on a magazine which was flipped open to a motorcycle ad page so I took it to put it on the table and I noticed it was a playboy magazine. Are you freaking kidding me?? I didnt even know he had a subscription to that kind of stuff. But I hid it under my sketchbook so the family friends dont notice. I got tired after an hour and blamed my disease saying its a side effect and needed to take a nap. Got chobits and safely made it to my room thank god. Then dad got the nerve to ask me where his "motorcycle magazine" was. "Oh you mean playboy? Its under my sketchbook" he didnt even say thank you for saving his butt. I was definitely not mentally or emotionally prepared for these situations. And thats why I hate unexpected visitors who come without any notice at all.
Seriously there are these things called phones people. Use them.
daikondani | 07-20-13, 1:39 PM
So two guys walk into a bar.
The first guy said "I'll have some H2O."
The second guy said "I'll have H2O too."
The second guy dies.
I can here the crickets already..
daikondani | 07-18-13, 12:52 PM
What do you consider a stale conversation? Most of the conversations I have never get too far past "Hi how are you?" "Good and you?" "That's good me too." "..." I don't know why that is.
Well the book is about 480 pages but it doesn't look that long to me. I've been reading it probably since March or something. I'm not a fast reader.. or maybe I just want to take my time. Maybe you should try Norwegian Wood since it's shorter? I like the way he writes though. Here's a quote from Kafka on the Shore:
“Closing your eyes isn't going to change anything. Nothing's going to disappear just because you can't see what's going on. In fact, things will even be worse the next time you open your eyes. That's the kind of world we live in. Keep your eyes wide open. Only a coward closes his eyes. Closing your eyes and plugging up your ears won't make time stand still.”
I think those books might just go over my head. I'm not sure I'm intelligent enough to read them. But it's worth a shot. If I got through the hell of Dante's Inferno I think I can get through pretty much anything. I like light novels sometimes. Ballad of a Shinigami is a nice one. But I don't read too many because I don't like to read on screens. It bothers my eyes. I have never read a full book on a kindle or tablet or anything like that. Almost everything I have read, including manga, are physical books that I own. Plus I like the feeling of flipping pages and seeing the progress I've made.
I have to read two assigned books for my summer reading, but my english class is second semester which doesn't start until January so I'll most likely put it off until winter break. The books I chose were Of Mice and Men by Steinbeck and The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis. There was a whole list of books but I didn't bother to read all the summaries. Reading summaries of books is boring to me. I don't know what Of Mice and Men is about but there's a band with the same name so I just went with it and C.S. Lewis wrote The Chronicles of Narnia so why not?
YES KIWIS! you finally understand. I can't help but think what other foods you've been missing out of.
Add these to your grocery list:
- yellow bellpepper
- greenbeans (cook these with soysauce. they taste better than noodles i'm serious.)
- ginger root (cut them in little pieces, boil them in water and strain it in a cup then add brown sugar or honey and you've got ginger tea. be careful it's spicy but it's great for when you've got an upset stomach or something.)
- please tell me you've had raspberries before
ok that's enough cooking lessons for now. hah you don't have to get all that stuff but you don't know what you're missing.
Sounds like you have a wonderful mom. My childhood was pretty messed up so I'd understand the feeling of not wanting anyone else to experience the same thing.
Guess which one is old folk polka music:
That's a nice performance. The drummer in this one is super energetic too! It looked like the girl was doing the YMCA before I realized what they were saying.
Unrequited love feels like shit.
Her name is IU. Well.. actually I'm not sure what her real name even is. I never looked it up.
Too much effort to watch it in color I guess? I don't know it was just there so I put it in. I ended up starting Attack on Titan. Caught up with the 14 episodes in two days time. I think I like this show.
I was trying to make a lame joke because I don't know what chemistry between people is yet I passed chemistry class.. haha.. okay time to cross out stand up comedian on the list of possible careers I could have. I wonder how much more I have to say before there's nothing to say anymore.. but that's like saying I wonder how much more I can think before I have no thoughts at all. It's impossible to stop thinking completely.
Well I missed like two months of school because of my lyme disease so I had to do make up work unless I'd have to repeat the classes again and that is not an option for me. I got the best schedule ever for my senior year.
- Graphic Design
- US History 2
- English Literature 4
- Biblical Theology
- Advanced Art Portfolio
- Media Literature and Production
Is it because you don't really want to talk to anyone? You got lucky. haha no. It's like you said, you're willing to listen to what I have to say. I forgot. Was I the one that talked to you first? I don't usually do that.. but I know it had to do with MBTI. Oh it doesn't matter anymore.
Have you heard of hentai toilet paper before?
Whoever thought of this is a genius.
daikondani | 07-15-13, 10:46 AM
Congratulations you reached your goal~ Your prize is.. nothing I guess except for whatever I write though you seem to not mind that I write so much so I'll keep writing more and more until you start to mind. Well, the only thing I have to give is my heart, but I doubt you'd want that sad thing.
How about a book suggestion instead? Do you read books? That was a stupid question. I mean, do you like to read? I'm reading Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami and it's pretty awesome so far. Which probably explains why I'm not watching anime these days..
Dragon fruit look scary on the outside but they're soft and sweet and mushy on the inside. I see more personality in this fruit than I do in some humans. You can peel it and chop it in slices or cubes or you can cut it in have and just eat it with a spoon. Oh there's also starfruit! When you cut them in slices, they're shaped like cute little stars it's adorable~ and they taste like sour oranges. I can go on and on about fruit but I'll stop here.
Those situations freak me out the most. What about your mom?
I'd do that if I knew what an OS actually is. I'm not computer savvy like you young'ins with your newfangled doodats and whoswhats.. is what my uncle would probably say. But whatever, I'm probably not going to get a mac in this lifetime.
The same reason santa scared me. I don't think I had a childhood hero tbh. I think it was Mozart haha. My parents said I always loved watching that Amadeus movie. I think I found another 80's movie I like even better. Ferris Bueler's Day Off
Teenagers don't have to make sense.
I don't care about the genre. I don't care if a band plays old folk polka music; if they say it's rock then it's rock. I really love L'arc~en~Ciel though. I just love watching people who love what they're doing.
Here's what they look now:
It's hard to believe the main singer is 44.. but that doesn't stop me from being a fan. I like seeing the energy they give off. They're like ocean waves and the fans are grains of sand. The waves splash on the shore bringing all the energy to the surface. The powerful water controls the sand to move on it's every whim. I seem to be getting poetic here. They're just cool ok.
There are only a few songs I get really emotional when I listen too. (Hah who am I kidding. I get emotional if I listen to basically anything.) Maybe these will make you cry.
the twist at the end though.
hnng i want to hold her hand too..
ok I'm done with showing you songs sorry.
Looks like my kind of show.
They could always pixelate it like they do with penises. Nevermind. That would look even stranger. Oh look a semicolon.
No, it goes on to another page if you go past 15 comments. I passed chemistry class with a B and I still don't know what the heck that is. Oh I finished my assignments. I wrote two articles for the newspaper. One about that Zimmerman trial and why it's not as important as the raging wars in the Middle East. The other about why pets are cute and adorable and you should get one because they're cute and adorable.
What are the odds of what? Millions of people use the internet each day. You're bound to find someone that you like talking too.
Btw how can you proofread what you write? I always get frustrated if I feel the need to reread something I wrote. Then I'd end up deleting it all which may or may not be for the best. I don't even like to think before writing something. The words flow out through my fingers when I really know what I want to say. But when it's something like an assignment or essay that I know will be judged for it, I'll spend hours being stressed out over what the hell to write and not even get a single word out of my head. I hate that.
I just noticed how long my replies are getting. You better stop me soon before I end up typing 20 page monologues to you. The more I open up, the more bothersome I become.
daikondani | 07-13-13, 3:50 PM
How is it possible that I can't write two 250 word articles for this assignment but I have no problem typing up 234820249 word messages to you? I'm dying here. щ(ಠ益ಠщ)
daikondani | 07-13-13, 1:14 PM
Ok forget about the kiwi. You have to taste dragonfruit. Aw, that's cute. When I was around 3 years old I always called birds "chichis" because of the chirping sound. I used to live in a city where there were many pigeons and whenever I'd see them I'd point and shout "CHICHIS!" Little did I know that I was actually shouting "BOOBS!" in Spanish.
It's easy to start something, but it's hard to finish it.
Everyone talks in detention. It's actually funny since it's usually all the class clowns and idiots all bunched up in one room. I hated bus rides. I used to take the bus when I was younger and was always bullied on the bus. I'm not even sure why, but I remember always running home crying. Now my parents take me (I should really get my license by now) since my school is only 5 minutes away. I tried walking home a few times, but there was this car that was always following me and honking. I got paranoid and decided never to walk alone ever again.
I think I might end up getting a mac even though they're way too expensive and can't operate eroge games (WHY)
Barney scared me.
Really? You remember that? Wow, I'm proud of myself. I must've dumbed down or something. Yeah, I guess I'd use semicolons occasionally; I'm not a philosopher.
Oh. I was actually kidding about the normal teenage girl thing but here it is:
I think what I was really trying to say is that I don't like talking to people about myself in general so I made a blog that looks so vague it could be made by anybody. Does that even make sense? Well we've been messaging for awhile.. I don't know what else there is to talk about.. Yesterday I fell asleep listening to old cds on my ancient walkman. The Best of L'arc~en~ciel 1998-2000 and Orange Range's 2004 album Musiq. I had a strange dream but I slept well for once.
I saw two episodes of the first series so I can't really judge it yet. I need to start watching anime again..
I watched half of the first episode. I laughed when the guy got out of the tub and the other guy looked a bit disappointed that he was wearing his swimsuit. It slightly bothers me that none of them have nipples. Why not get rid of belly buttons while you're at it?
daikondani | 07-11-13, 10:50 PM
That's nice I guess. I'm all for high expectations and big dreams I'll never reach. It's more fun to think that way until reality hits you. It's pronounced die-kon-dani or something like that. Were you deprived as a child? Go and eat a kiwi fruit tomorrow. There's an easy goal for you. I've never heard of those birds before.. they look like kiwis. Are you from New Zealand?
I used to watch a bit of Doctor Who when I had the BBC channel on TV but now it's gone or moved to some other channel and I never bothered to check it or felt the need to catch up with the series. I liked that Rory character though.
Oh I just overexaggerate when I say that. I wouldn't feel THAT guilty but I hate ending conversations on a bad note. To the people who I really am close and comfortable with, I say I love you and hug them in an attempt to forget the problem. It's not that I can't help feeling guilty, it's that I can't help being affectionate. Though to the people that I'm not comfortable with, I'd probably walk away without a word. I try to stay away from arguements in general.
I can't kill flies. No matter how much I dislike them, I can't kill them.. with my own bare hands that is. Here's my strategy: I sneak up on them when they're resting on the mesh part of the window then I shut the window while they're in there trapping them in the little space between the mesh and window frame. They eventually die of starvation and drop dead.
I think it depends on the type of window. The ones at my school are the.. push out and lock kind of ones. I've noticed that a few people who get detention sneak out the windows while the teacher isn't looking. Speaking of detention, I kind of like it tbh. I always found that having lunch with friends is more of a hassle than a relaxing time. I just sit with people to not draw attention to myself. Being in a crowd is one of the lonliest places that I ever feel forced to stay in. Not to mention exhausting. Detention is nice. It's a quiet room where I get to look outside the window and not feel pressured to do anything. That's why I always tried to go late to classes just to get detention. Weird huh? Anyway, that went off track.. yeah I don't think everywhere has those mesh things.
What about macs though?
I think I've learned to deal with it when I realize how big the world is. (What a cheesy saying.) There are about 3 other people in the world that look exactly like you. What if they're better than you too? Then you've got nothing.. I lost my train of thought. Well basically the moral of the story is forget about other people and think only about yourself. Which is the opposite of what I really do.
I don't know.. I never use semicolons. I appreciate them too much to use them.
Today I successfully created a fake blog as a back up for family and friends who think my interests are that of a normal teenage girl. I don't know whether to feel accomplished or shameful that I don't even like to talk about my real interests casually.
So what's the best summer anime so far? I wonder how that gay swimming one is.. did anyone drown and had get mouth to mouth recussitation yet?
daikondani | 07-10-13, 9:38 PM
Nevermind I'll just write it now. I feel better when I write anyway.
That's a pretty lame goal seeing as how the last person to comment was back in February. Maybe I should start talking to other people just in spite. Kidding~ ^^ Oh a daikon is like a white raddish and a dani is.. let me refer you to the first definition of that word on urban dictionery. hm.. kiwis taste good. RoRi? ..Rory Williams? That's all that comes to mind.
It's not about keeping it clean with me. It's that I always need to reassure myself that the relationship I have with the person I argued with didn't change. If I didn't say I love you at the end I would feel guilty for the rest of my life seriously.
"I have no special talent. I am only passionately curious."
That show scared me so much that I jump even if it's just a fly. That reminds me of this kid I knew when I was in kindergarten. He was a 4th grader that used to eat live worms infront of the girls for fun. He also used to demonstrate how the worms stay alive even when cut in half.
Maybe your instict is to watch people..? I don't know.
I was using one hand to shut it and I didn't realize that my other hand was.. oh yeah there are mesh things on the windows but mine was broken for so long and no one bothered to fix it. Plus I got a quick trip to the afterlife if I ever feel the need to. Not really. It's only about 8 feet from the ground.
HAH windows 8.. I still use a Vista and I swear it works twice as fast as my parents windows 7 which I'm on right now and it's completely annoying. This is trash.
I can't help feeling worthless when I see someone who is a much better person than me. I have an inferiority complex. (︶︹︺)っ but I'm improving~
Yup that felt better.