What is wrong with me... I finally have something good and I keep missing it up... I hate myself for hurting him... my love
The love of my life and I keep pushing him away, I truely am a pitty
Forgive me for what I've done... Yuko, I don't deserve it, but I am asking for your forgiveness... the medication that I'm taking makes me moody and I don't have the right to be rude to you
Hello, this is Darian... a few nights ago I was depressed because of something someone here on the site said to me
My love Yuko told me something heartbreaking and when the other "person", got on he mad it worse... I got off and later the night I slit my wrists, I truly wanted to die... and I was going to take my sisters life aswell... I would have done that first, but I didn't want her to die because of me... so, I just slit my own wrists.
My friend James was coming to pick me up for work and he found me in my blood, he called 911 and now I'm in the hospital. James has been logging in and checking messages for me and he's writing this, with my help of course. I'll be here for a while, I'm also on suicide watch. They put my sister in this hospital, she's sick... so, she has to be watched. I was suppose to watch her.
Uh, I'll be here and my friend James says he'll make his own account later after I'm out of here, bye and talk later I guess
If you see I'm on, its James on for me
And the reason... I hate my life right now is, I wanted to kill myself because of what my love Yuko said... it turned out that he was fine and that if I had done what I had planed, I would have murdered my sister and been found by James anyway... I hope god will forgive me
-Darian
The weekdays: In the morning I work at a bakery and in the after noon at a target close to my house, after diner I go to work at a bar as I waiter. (soometimes I'll get called to work at the hospital)
The weekend: The hospital and bar
Okay, I like to read alot of stuff, but I hate crapy anime and all that stupid stuff like, when I see a comic I want to just see the comic, no anime/comic shit, just a comice ya know and just an anime, the two worlds should never mix!!
Unless its actually good, then maybe XP
Also, I would like to meet a guy... or a chick that likes what I like, I mean... I meet this one shick and she likes sports, but not like getting waxed...
And this one really hot guy, that likes getting waxed, but no sports! WTF!!!
*sigh* Alls I'm sayin is, get with it folks!