Everyone has those animes that they watch where they really don't want the series to end even though it has "ended". This might be because the story isn't done or they could have done more with the story or just because we still want to see more.

Similarly, I'm sure we've all had experiences with anime characters that have met an untimely demise and yet we didn't want to lose them! This only has impact if one is emotionally attached to the character, and getting people emotionally attached to characters is not as easy as it sounds.

I guess I'm writing this blog because I don't want to feel like I'm the only one who is that badly affected by Hikaru No Go.

*** Possible spoilers ****

*** Please stop reading the blog here if you have not seen Full Metal Alchemist, Fate Stay Night or Hikaru No Go ***

There are several layers of attachment. I am comparing just 3 of the series that I've recently watched.

Fate/Stay Night

Saber (Arturia) says, "I am going to sleep now" as she dies. Saber is one of the most kawaii er, cute characters, and most fans love her. So when she dies, it's a very touching scene and a few tears slipped out of my eyes.

Full Metal Alchemist

Hughes was someone we could all identify with. He was a devoted father who boasted about his daughter every opportunity he got. He was also a VERY smart man who figured out something that was so important he had to be killed for it. When Hughes died, I said NOOOO! For the next 5 episodes I hung around, in DENIAL, hoping that he had faked his death and he was actually still alive. When Winry visited his home is when it hit me and the tears started, I cried that entire scene, then I was over it.

Hikaru No Go

I'm sure everyone knows this one - when Sai disappeared. I don't understand why, when I started watching this anime about a board game, it was supposed to be .. boring, but it sucked me in. It wasn't until episode 60 that I realize I had literally gotten attached to an anime character as if he was a real person.

Of all the anime characters, why Sai? He wasn't manly, he looked effeminate. Under all that though it was his kind, patient, caring, gentle nature coupled with a genius intellect that got me. He never got to say goodbye properly, he just ... disappeared "It was fu~".

Even though we knew Sai's time was running out, I still couldn't believe it when he was gone. I cried for an hour straight after that and nearly couldn't finish the rest of the anime. I only watched the rest in hopes that they would bring Sai back :( 

Losing Sai was like losing your best friend/family member. Heck I've had breakups where I didn't cry as much as I did after that episode. Why Sai, why are you gone? It's the next day and I'm still crying every time I think of Sai. I can't seem to stop. How will I be at work tomorrow? How can I explain it? "I am sad because an anime character is gone, please excuse me I need to go to the ladies to cry!"

Is something wrong with me? I admit I cry at touching scenes, but I've never cried this much about any character in any anime or movie ever. Is it just me? Because I wanted Sai to come haunt me :( Why am I so attached to Sai? Please don't leave Sai, please don't leave us. I am still grieving, I can't believe he's gone. *T.T*

Am I the only one this badly affected? Are there other people like me who are having trouble "getting over" anime character's deaths? What did you do to get over it? Are there other Sai fans who were hit this hard after seeing this anime?