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Anime Relations: Honey and Clover

So I doubt anyone will read this (maybe it's for the best) but I wanted to post this somewhere and since the IGN blogs are basically defunct...

Sitting around today being bored, reading random shit online, I've come to the conclusion that at least one cause (well, aside from boredom) of these anxious, restless feelings I've been having stems from the overwhelming need I have to ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING.

For at least a year now I haven't really done shit.

Vague, right? But it's pretty accurate. Read on (assuming you're reading this in the first place, you might as well finish...):

I think my train of thoughts ended up arriving at this particular station (here's a tenuous link to anime... of course I didn't post this on MAL for the fuck of it, I had a reason after all... heh heh) while watching Hachikuro a few months back.

Besides making me want to become an architect (it's in the show... sort of) , it made me realize that I rarely create things anymore. Stories, paintings, music... whatever. It was kind of depressing.

It's not necessarily that I feel like I have to MAKE something to feel right, it's just easy to feel useless at this transitional age... I'm supposed to be entering the "real world" in a few years but I feel like I don't even really affect it.

So, I've decided I want to DO something. Be a volunteer tutor, write a story, clean up the beach, make people money... fuck, I don't know... something that affects the world, or at least people, in a (vaguely, if it's all I can do) positive manner.

The point that I'm trying to make is that however much I love weed, games, anime, etc., it'd be nice to do something to escape this vapid consumer lifestyle at least once in a while (not trying to be deep here, but seriously, I don't do much in my free time...) and in doing so affect something, somehow.

Anyway, just wanted to put this out somewhere, however pointless it may be.
Anyone else feel this way? Questions/comments/malice-filled cries of "get a life"?